Since the Last Time We Spoke

Art by Rob Goldstein
Since the Last Time We Spoke

 

Since the last time

we spoke, I shrieked

like an ape and pissed

on Park Avenue.

Since the last time

we spoke, recruits

tore through my

bedroom; they raped

me to  submission.

Since the last time

we spoke, I grew all

of the sins of flesh.

The system slipped in

for my own damned

good!

So Doctor, will you love

me?

Is this critical?

Are you my Angel?

(c) Rob Goldstein 1986

Dissociative Identity Disorder: Platitudes and Blame

An Apology

My alternates write and post while I think I’m asleep.

This still causes a sense of remorse and shame.
I try to comfort myself by saying, most people don’t care.

But I care.

Why?
Fear.
Of what?
Fear of bigots who do cruel things to people with mental illnesses
and justify their cruelty with cheap platitudes.

They’re everywhere including the Behavioral Health System at Kaiser.

One of my alternates responds to the implied blame in certain
platitudes with rage:
“This hurts me more than it does you”
“If they stayed in their place this wouldn’t happen.”
“People should be with their own kind.

“If you tried harder you could work!”

“All you have to do is change how you think!”

The corpses of people tortured into their graves while
their tormentors shamed them with cheap platitudes
litter the World’s graveyards.
Arbeit macht frei
“Work Makes Free” was the wisdom at the gates of Auschwitz
What triggered me this time?
Last Thursday I arrived at Kaiser Facility to begin a 12 Week
course: Managing the symptoms of Complex Post Traumatic
Stress Disorder.
I had called on Monday to verify the schedule at the request of
my therapist.
When I checked in the receptionist said I was not scheduled to begin
the course until January of next year.
I felt the angry one surface:
“That’s stupid!” He said. “That’s like having a broken leg  and being told to come back in six months to have it set. Who do I talk to?”
The receptionist left a message with the therapist who runs the schedule and got me
into the group.
Switching that fast is always a big deal.
It is a visceral defense mechanism automatically activated as part of the flight or fight response.
In my case, the response is fight.
But a result of being chronically “activated” is that I have a low threshold for panic attacks.
When I reached the waiting room, I could hear my heart pounding.
I sat down and other patients began to arrive for the 4pm group.
One woman was using them as an inducement to leaving her home.
She only left her house to come to Kaiser.
At 4:30PM, there were five of us waiting for the group to start.
Someone went up to reception and discovered that the group was cancelled.
No one on the staff had bothered to tell the five patients who had arrived early
and were anxiously waiting for the group to begin,
Kaiser cancelled an important treatment group because the group leader
was sick and the Kaiser Department of Behavioral Health is so understaffed
there was no one to take her place.
This was the trigger that resulted in lost time this weekend.
It is my job to manage my illness and I take responsibility when I screw up.
I’m not saying that Kaiser is responsible for my behavior during a trigger response.
I am always responsible for what I say and do.
And I am working toward the day when my emotions will stop having minds of their own.
To do that I will need a treatment provider that wants to treat serious mental illness
and that cares enough about its patients to offer a fully staffed department of
psychiatry.
Art by Rob Goldstein
Kaiser Defense Mechanisms

(C) Rob Goldstein 2014

Save

Save

Save

Save

Somewhere Between

Art by Rob Goldstein
Somewhere Between

It’s midnight here and noon there,

Trina is somewhere between.

She lights her cigarette as if to punctuate
an important point.

“How is it you and I are never connected?”
She says to the average Joe.

“You lack the perfect plug.” He replies.

And it may be true.

Trina wants more but Joe wants to go;

They collide in passing.

These things sometimes happen:

a morning-glory never opens

a dead bee stings the sole of your foot

a giant willow tree used as whips,

Trina feels outta whack…

Land of the tall thin shadow

Illegal cries in the dark

Trina forwards her nightmares to

other people.

She grabs them by the balls.

(c) Rob Goldstein 1986


 
The Talking Heads
And She Was
Community Audio

Save

Save

Save

Save

NIGHT CLUBBING

Warning: this post contains sadomasochistic erotica and may be triggering to people with a history of trauma. (Although I don’t consider it especially erotic)

Night Clubbing
Night Clubbing

Felicity and Roger danced at the fashionable Club Uranus in the fashionable
Warehouse District of fashionable San Francisco.

They had disguised themselves as nothing and they were dismayed when
everyone noticed.

Friends who hadn’t spoken to them in years remarked they should be
nothing more often.

“You look so relaxed!” shrieked the man that Roger was whipping.

Felicity dragged Roger to the dance floor.

“Felicity.” whispered Roger.

“What!” She was desperate for fun.

“I don’t like being nothing.”

“You’re nothing and there’s nothing I can do about it! Enjoy yourself!”

Roger put on a pout: “But I can’t!”

“Then you’re a baby.”

Roger jumped and clapped, “I knew you’d think of something!”

He removed his clothes and curled up on the dance floor.

“Oh look!” cried a little man in a flannel nighty, “Another baby!”

He crawled to Felicity and yanked on her dress: “Can I play, can I play!?”

Felicity was disgusted.

She gave the little man a withering look.

“Get up this instant or Mommy will kill your surprise!”

The little man gazed up at Felicity with wide eyes and said: “I’m a good boy Mommy.
Let me have the surprise!”

“Very well,” she smiled

Felicity removed one of her stiletto heels and beat the little man on the head.

“No Mommy! No!”

“Bad! Bad! Boy!”

The little man soon fainted and her fun was over.

Roger grabbed her by the waist when Felicity returned. “I love it when you play bad
Mommy.” He said.

“I hope I didn’t kill him.” She giggled.

Roger examined the people who applauded as the little man moaned and bled.

“I bet they don’t.”

Rob Goldstein (c) 1992

Save

Save

Save

If You Had a Superpower – What Would it Be?

Art by Rob Goldstein

Daisy in the Willow tagged me with this question.

Tag guidelines

Save

What Does the Establishment Pay Right Wing Media to Tell You to Hate Your Government?

Art by Rob Goldstein
Fox News: 1% News 99& Fear and Smear

There is an Establishment.

The last thing this Establishment wants is for you to feel empowered by our
Democracy to shape your government and it’s future.

It wants you to think that Capitalism and Democracy are the same thing;.

It doesn’t want you to have a visceral sense of your right to  your share of this
nation’s wealth.

Why do you have a right to a share of the wealth of your country?

Because you are a citizen of the United States of America.

 

Art by Rob Goldstein
We’ve earned our share.


The Establishment wants you to feel isolated, alienated and afraid.

It wants you to hate yourself and your neighbors and nothing pleases
it more than watching citizens gun each other down over nothing.

Mass shootings are a method of control.

So, how much does it pay to broadcast the Establishment’s daily message of
lies, disinformation, racist slurs,  character assassinations, capitalist dogma,
and fear?

Here is a short list of prominent right-wing (establishment) pundits and experts.

Rupert Murdoch
Net Worth: $11.4 Billion

Rush Limbaugh
Net Worth: $470 Million

 Glenn Beck ($90 million)  a Year
Right-wing political TV personality Glenn Beck earned $90 million this year.  His income stems from the network he started after leaving Fox News, The Blaze.

Matt Drudge
Net worth: $90 Million

Sean Hannity
Net Worth: $80 Million

Bill O’Reilly
Net Worth: $70 Million

Steve Bannon
Net Worth $41.0 million (Not fully verified)

Roger Ailes
Net Worth $25 Million

Megyn Kelly
Net Worth: $15 Million

Lou Dobbs
Net Worth: $10 Million

Ann Coulter
Net worth: $8.5 Million

Charles Krauthammer
Net Worth $8 MIllion

Newt Gingrich
Net Worth $7 Million

Mike Huckabee
Net Worth $5 Million

Michelle Malkin
Net Worth $3 Million

 

Art by Rob Goldstein
Image found on Twitter

 


Creedence Clearwater Revival
Fortunate Son
Community Audio

 

Save

Save

Save

Save

Save

Pleasant Notions Regarding the Life Cycle of Trees

Art by Rob Goldstein
Pleasant Notions Regarding the Life Cycle of Trees

Rings, counting, and just how long has this been here?

Feckless dawn, scent of tar, crushed horizons

A noon sun arrives in no particular sky at no particular time

Shimmering greens, scent of pine—

And all these dusty needles

Poem and Image by Rob Goldstein (c) 2016


Brian Eno
Another Day On Earth
Community Audio

 

 

The Drowned Man

Ar by Rob Goldstein
The Drowned Man

the drowned man is brought
ashore, seawater leaks
from his mouth.

a woman in repose: she lifts
a skinned knee and chews; she
feels the drowned man scream.

a bubble escapes
from his mouth
with a pop

spit falls like rain

motion of implacable
hands!

moans, sighs
she spreads
her thighs and

blows a kiss.

breath of humidity–

gravity is ceased.

(C) Rob Goldstein 1986

 

Psychological Abuse online is real and Not as Easy to Solve as Pressing the “off” Button

Bully Free Zone

 

People with trauma related mental health problems bring certain vulnerabilities to their
online interactions.

The same trigger responses that affect our online relationships just as they affect our
relationships in life.

My greatest vulnerability is a childlike faith in the goodness of other people.

It’s a symptom of my DID.

It invites people to try to take advantage of me.

I am also vulnerable to letting narcissistic bullies into my life.

Online abuse often takes the form of communications that are insulting,
threatening, devaluing, and mocking.
When the abuse happens online, the abuser is a cyber-bully.
Cyber-bullies target online activities, communications, and friends.
They will repeatedly send you unwanted messages or other kinds of communication.
They will try to intrude in your online activities and will actively defame you on
social networking sites.
They will gather information from your friends and encourage others to harass you, claiming to be harassed by you.
They will also approach your friends to get information about you or to create conflict in your relationships with others.
Abuse is always about control.
Abusers want to control the lives and actions of the people they target.
Abusers will also use alternate accounts on social networks to stalk and harass you.
From a “Healthy Place”
How to tell when you are dealing with online abuse:
Abusers will engage in:
  • Name calling or insults; mocking
  • Threats and intimidation
  • Ignoring or excluding
  • Isolating
  • Humiliating
  • Denial of the abuse and blaming of the victim
     From Wikipedia
Male and female perpetrators of emotional and physical abuse show high rates of personality disorders, particularly borderline personality disorder, narcissistic personality disorder, and antisocial personality disorder
What can you do to protect yourself?
From ABC News:
1. DO NOT respond to this person. Engaging with the bully often only makes matters worse. They feed off their victim’s misery and pain.
2. Make a copy of the message, photo, or video. The best way to do this is to copy the URL of the specific webpage where it’s happening.
3. Contact the website operators by phone, email and any contact submission forms that they have available on their site.
4. File a report with your local police department.
If necessary, file a complaint with the Internet Crime Complaint Center (IC3). The IC3 is a partnership between the FBI, the National White Collar Crime Center, and the Bureau.
My personal suggestion is that you let your friends and contacts know what it happening and that you limit your online communication to people who are fully aware of the seriousness of cyber bullies and who will work with you to promote safety.

I also recommend that you keep screen-shots of all abuse email and texts.

In many ways I’m grateful to the bullies I’ve met over the past five years.

They have taught me that I am strong, and that I simply continue to be myself most
people will figure out the con.

Social media is a real asset for those of us who want to find ways to live past
the pain.

A bully’s pleasure is your silence.

Don’t give it to him.

RG 2014

Save

Save

Save

An Anniversary of Death

Art by Rob Goldstein
Portrait of JFK based on a public domain portrait

Red fragments

on

the highway;

down

there

where the

sun

is too hot.

Watch it

frame

by frame

over

and over

lest we

forget

and how

can we

forget

the day

hate

gunned

down

faith.

(c) Rob Goldstein 1985

Abraham, Martin and John
Dion
Community Audio

The Political is Personal

Art by Rob Goldstein
Down The Memory Hole

I return to my blog today to find that I’ve been on a political tear.

I am the Matt part of Matthew.

I go to therapy and make sure we get help in a crisis.

I write about DID.

The best way to understand this blog is to think of it as a group effort.

It’s really a dozen blogs all mushed up into one.

The part of me that blogs politics freaked out so now I’m back
to try to make sense of why we’re still so switchy and losing so
much time.

I’ve mentioned that I am in EMDR therapy.

In my last session, I approached a memory hole.

A memory hole is a gap in time.

I know something horrible happened but I don’t know what it is.

My memory of the events that lead the gap is clear:

I am five and my Sister is almost two.

Mother takes us to an apartment building in a seedy part of town.

She has left my father.

A man sits on the porch: his testicles hang out of his shorts.

We go down a dark hallway and I see another man through
an open door.

He reads at a kitchen table.

He looks up and flashes a tooth-less grin.

We enter a furnished room.

There is a bed, a couch and a small kitchen with a table and two chairs.

Mother has purchased pots, pans, and other kitchen supplies.

She intends for us to live here.

The next memory is that of waking up on a king sized bed.

My Sister sleeps next to me.

The babysitter is on the couch having sex with her boyfriend.

I know who she is but I don’t know him. It looks like he’s
choking her.

Then, I hear a tap at the window behind the bed.

I look up and see a man’s face.

He has a gun—and nothing.

No memory.

The next morning a social worker from the Jewish Family Services
takes my sister and me to a foster home.

I don’t know why.

I hear a child’s voice in my head say the man killed the baby- sitter
but I don’t know if that’s true.

Psychotherapy affects every domain of functioning, even for people
who do it for simpler reasons.

Psychotherapy to treat a complex defense mechanism like Dissociative
Identity Disorder can make a person feel like he’s going crazy.

It is true that I am passionate about politics, but I sense an atmosphere
of violence and implied threats in our national politics and it’s triggering.

It feels like the South of my childhood.

This is part of why I’m so destabilized.

I feel as if I have to tell everyone that we’re in danger but I don’t
know if that’s true.

I do know this:

I’m haunted by the ghosts of armed white people
who flew confederate flags.

And I was in danger.

This is part of the reason I’m losing so much time.

RG 2016

Armed White Supremacists Protest the NAACP in Houston: Video

I found this video of a white supremacist protest on the Bipartisan Report.

The protesters call themselves White Lives Matter.

The spokesperson is one of Donald Trump’s Second Amendment Types; he
claims the flying of the Confederate Flag is about Heritage.

The only people I know of who fly the Confederate Flag are white supremacists.

That’s why I used the term white supremacists in the title of this post.

This is who’s voting for Donald Trump.

Art by Rob Goldstein
Found on Twitter via John Moffit
Art by Rob Goldstein
Vote as if your life depended on it, because it does!

Save

August 22, 2016: Today’s Top Three Right-Wing Lies

These were the three lies at the top of the Yahoo News page today.

Let’s start with this juicy half truth as a headline:

Huma Abedin
Clinton Aid listed as the Former Assistant Editor of an Anti-Feminist Muslim Journal

Who is Huma Abedin?

According to Vanity Fair 40-year-old Huma Abedin began working for Hillary in 1996, when she was a 19-year-old intern fresh from George Washington University assigned to the First Lady’s office.

Over the years Huma has served in several positions, with increasingly important-sounding titles. She has been Hillary’s “body woman,” her traveling chief of staff, a senior adviser, and a deputy chief of staff when Hillary was secretary of state. Now, based in Brooklyn, she is the vice-chair of Hillary’s 2016 presidential campaign. But whatever the title, the job she performs for Hillary has always been essentially the same: confessor, confidante, and constant companion. It’s safe to say that over the years Abedin and Hillary have spent more time together than either has with her husband.

A former adviser to Bill Clinton describes her as “a mini Hillary.” Wherever Hillary goes, Abedin goes. In November 2008, when Hillary flew to Chicago to meet with President-Elect Barack Obama to discuss becoming secretary of state, she took Huma along. During Hillary’s grueling, nearly 11-hour congressional testimony in October about Benghazi, Abedin was there. She has been referred to as a “second daughter” to the Clintons. Others have described Hillary and Huma as like sisters.

Huma Abedin was born in Kalamazoo, Michigan. Her mother, Saleha Mahmood Abedin, is Pakistani; her late father, Syed Zainul Abedin, was Indian. Both were intellectuals. When Abedin was two years old, the family moved to Jidda, Saudi Arabia, where, with the backing of Abdullah Omar Nasseef, then the president of King Abdulaziz University, her father founded the Institute of Muslim Minority Affairs, a think tank, and became the first editor of its Journal of Muslim Minority Affairs, which stated its mission as “shedding light” on minority Muslim communities around the world in the hope of “securing the legitimate rights of these communities.”

The Journal of Muslim Minority Affairs is an Abedin family business. Huma was an assistant editor there between 1996 and 2008. Her brother, Hassan, 45, is a book-review editor at the Journal and was a fellow at the Oxford Center for Islamic Studies, where Nasseef is chairman of the board of trustees. Huma’s sister, Heba, 26, is an assistant editor at the Journal. Vanity Fair News

What is the Journal of Muslim Minority affairs?

Journal of Muslim Minority Affairs is the only scholarly journal studying Muslim communities in non-Muslim societies. It provides a wealth of information about these communities that cannot be found anywhere else in documented form. It has opened up a new area of specialization in minority studies with original articles addressing the minority condition from the historical, demographic, social and economic perspective. Our research interests extend to include non-Muslim minorities living in Muslim societies, interfaith dialogue with the objective of promoting understanding, and the study of Muslim minority women who face particular and complex challenges to their minority existence while maintaining their Islamic identity. The Journal has indeed pioneered the way in examining theoretical and conceptual issues that define and explain the minority experience.

Journal of Muslim Minority Affairs

In 2012 the anti-feminist Michele Bachmann promulgated a rumor that Huma Abedin was a member of the Muslim Brotherhood and a mole in the State Department.

Art by Rob Goldstein
Letter from Michelle Bachmann

According to Snopes.com,  Bachmann’s accusations were so outrageous that:

Republican John McCain condemned them on the floor of the U.S. Senate as having
“no logic, no basis and no merit” Snopes.com

Also on snopes.com is this:

Abedin was assistant editor of the Journal of Muslim Minority Affairs working under her mother, who remains editor-in-chief.

Headlined “Women’s Rights Are Islāmic Rights,” a 1996 article argues that single moms, working moms and gay couples with children should not be recognized as families. It also states that more revealing dress ushered in by women’s liberation “directly translates into unwanted results of sexual promiscuity and irresponsibility and indirectly promote violence against women.”

In a separate January 1996 article, Abedin’s mother — who was the Muslim World League’s delegate to the UN conference — wrote that Clinton and other speakers were advancing a “very aggressive and radically feminist” agenda that was un-Islamic and wrong because it focused on empowering women.

Snopes.com

That makes Abedin no more anti-feminist than Michelle Bachmann

Next up:

Art by Rob Goldstein
Hillary Clinton’s Abortion Stand Contradicts her religion

The Federalist, another right-wing propaganda outlet, claims that a Catholic Magazine says that Hillary Clinton’s religion, she’s a Methodist, contradicts her abortion stance.

Not quite:

Ary by Rob Goldstein
Policy Statement on abortion from the United Methodist Church

“It’s important to note that the Church’s statements on social issues, such as abortion, represent the effort of the General Conference to speak to human issues in the contemporary world from a sound biblical and theological foundation. They are intended to be instructive and persuasive, but they are not church law and are not binding on members. Members will hold differing views on abortion. There is no requirement for members to agree with the Church’s view.”

And last is this wonderful example of the Bandwagon Approach:

Art by Rob Goldstein
The Bandwagon Approach

I’m not surprised.

I’m sure that almost as many Republicans believe that Hillary Clinton is Lucifer.

Rg 2016

 

I Will Tell You These Secrets

 

Your touch

is a

healing

caress

and when

we touch

my heart

beats within

your chest.

I think of you

each morning,

I look for you

each night,

I remember

your embrace

and savor the

memory of my

delight.

how can I express

the power

of my gratitude?

To hold you,

To know that

I am safe,

sheltered from

the pain

of these

memories

that

consume

me.

I look into

your eyes

and see

that you are

not

afraid.

I can never

repay you

for the wonder

you bring

but I can tell

you these secrets:

you kiss my lips and open my heart

you touch me and awaken my body

you gaze into my eyes and heal

my soul,

and when you hold me,

I am complete.

(c) Rob Goldstein 2015

Lies, Damned lies, and Right Wing Media

Art by Rob Goldstein
A blatant lie promulgated by Fox News and #Debunked on Snopes.com.


Propaganda: “…information, especially of a biased or misleading nature, used to promote a political cause or point of view.”  Oxford English Dictionary

Black propaganda is credited to a false source, it spreads lies, fabrications, and deceptions.” The Propaganda Project

Art by Rob Goldstein
2010 Cover of Newsweek for an article that discusses the impact of disinformation on the public.

There are now dozens of mini-fox networks that do nothing but spread lies.

A search for definitions of the term ‘disinformation’ turns up this from the
European Parliamentary Research Service Blog which provides research and
analyses to members of the European Parliament. This blog defines disinformation
as, “the purposeful and systematic manipulation of information – the broader term ‘propaganda’ dates back to the 17th century, whereas ‘disinformation’ was coined during the Cold War.”

Understanding Propaganda and Disinformation

A legitimate news outlet employs democrats, republicans, libertarians, and
people of faith. It also verifies sources, issues retractions when it makes
mistakes and does not attempt to influence public opinion by deliberately
spreading lies.

For instance the editorial of the New York Times  features Conservative David Brooks, Maureen Dowd, who ranked #43 on The Daily Telegraphs list of the 100 most influential liberals in America and Thomas Friedman, who endorses radical centrism; idealism without illusions.

Compare this to TheBlaze, a Fox News mini-me.

TheBlaze is another right-wing rag founded by conservative talk radio personality and weepy conspiracy theorist Glenn Beck.

I chose the names of three random ‘correspondents’ and here is what I found:

David Barton: He is an evangelical Christian political activistand author. He is the founder of WallBuilders, LLC, a Texas-based organization that promotes unorthodox views about the religious basis of the United States. He has been described as a Christian nationalist and “one of the foremost Christian revisionist historians”; much of his work is devoted to advancing the idea, based upon research that many historians and journalists describe as flawed,[1] that the United States was founded as an explicitly Christian nation and that the assertion that the United States Constitution calls for separation of church and state is a “myth. He has a BA from Oral Robert’s University.

Penn Fraser Jillette: He is magician, juggler, comedian, musician, inventor, actor, and best-selling author known for his work with fellow magician Teller as half of the team Penn & Teller. He is also known for his advocacy of atheism, scientific skepticism, libertarianism and free-market capitalism.

Keith Ablow: He is a psychiatrist and contributor on psychiatry for Fox News Channel and TheBlaze. As of 2011, he was also an assistant clinical professor at Tufts University School of Medicine. He’s a Republican.

There is not a lot of political diversity at TheBlaze.

This morning I load Bing and what do I see at the top of the page:

Art by Rob Goldstein
Clinton’s Health continues to spur Controversy on the right even though everyone in right-wing media know they’re lying.

Wasn’t this smear #debunked a week ago?

Art by Rob Goldstein
Screenshot from Snopes.com

But the right-wing press still hammers it:

And these are just lies about Clinton’s health.

How much damage did decades of coordinated smear campaigns do?

According to YourNewsWire Russian Foreign Intelligence discovered that the man who purportedly leaked Hillary’s medical records was found dead.

Art by Rob Goldstein
Headline from the fake news site, yournewswire.

“The Foreign Intelligence Service (SVR) is reporting today that the continuing to grow list of mysterious deaths surrounding U.S. presidential candidate Hillary Clinton has increased after the father of the doctor treating her for dementia suddenly died this past weekend — and who is believed to have been behind the leaking of her most secret medical records.”

The ‘continuing to grow’ list of deaths gave me a chuckle.

None of it is true:

From Snopes:

“…Vincent Fleck passed away while competing in a triathlon in early August 2016. However, all the rest of the story about a CIA “hit team” finding a “dead man’s switch” on Vincent Fleck’s computer is a fabrication, as is the claim about Dr. Daniel Fleck’s treating Hillary Clinton for dementia. (It’s rather unlikely a physical therapist with a regular practice specializing in sports injuries would be furtively treating a high-profile politician campaigning throughout the country for dementia.)”

Art by Rob Goldstein
Snopes #Debunks the peculiar pattern of smears that surround Clinton.
Art by Rob Goldstein
Trump spokeswoman says Clinton has dysphasia.

Dysphasia: a language disorder marked by deficiency in the generation of speech, and sometimes also in its comprehension, due to brain disease or damage.

Trump is running a cynical campaign.

Katrina Pierson must know she’s lying.

Anyone with a search engine (who is willing to use it) knows she’s lying.

I think the GOP needs a distraction:

Art by Rob Goldstein
Federal Judge Rules Case Against Trump can Proceed

If right-wing media cared about the health and integrity if our next Commander-in-Chief they have plenty to run with in Trump.

They don’t care, certainly not about ethics or morality: all they want is to win the game.

But a win by cheating doesn’t make you a winner; it makes you a loser who cheats.

RG 2016

Fading Beauty

 

Art by Rob Goldstein
Fading Beauty

There’s a screen between us, opaque; it filters our lives.

What you see is who I want to be and what I see is what
I imagine.

Now, you are the romantic; a tragic figure fights for his
rights, an amusement for the upper class.

I dance on the table, flushed with shame, for this I will
win the crown.

I am little Miss America lost on her stroll down the aisle.

I’m your little darling who forgets to look harmless.

(c) RG 2016

Save

Thirty Days of Fox News

Art by Rob Goldsten
Fox News – Your Source for Disinformation and Lies.

I tracked Fox News headlines on social media for thirty+ random days and took screenshots.

I saw the following logical fallacies: ad hominem attacks, appeals to ignorance, and the repeated use of the word many as in #ManyPeopleAreSaying.

This fallacy is called the Bandwagon Approach.

The Bandwagon Approach is an,  “Appeal to widespread belief, an appeal to common practice and peer pressure. If the discussion is about social conventions, such as “good manners”, then this is a reasonable line of argument. However, in the 1800’s there was a widespread belief that bloodletting cured sickness. These people were not just wrong, but horribly wrong, because it made people sicker. Clearly, the popularity of an idea is no guarantee that it’s right.  A common justification for bribery is everybody does it; in the past, this was also a justification for slavery. A List of Fallacious Arguments 

Art by Rob Goldstein
June 28th, 2016 from Newsmax: Many Illegals have tuberculosis says one Border Patrol Agent.

Liberalism and Conservatism are points of view and both points of view are
needed for a balanced political debate.

Genuine conservatism is about preserving the best of our traditions while working with Liberals to move our country forward.

There was a time when liberals and conservatives agreed that respectful disagreement was in the best interest of the country.

To someone who was raised on journalists like Walter Cronkite and a news media regulated by the fairness doctrine a news network or media outlet that shapes the
news to fit its dogma is something I’d expect from one of the fictional tyrannies in Mission Impossible.

Art by Rob Goldstein
From the Right Wing News Blog Truth and Action.Org 8-17-2016 debunked by Snopes.com

Many people are asking: is Fox News an American news outlet or is Fox News

from Bocamo?

Decide for yourself. Click the screenshot to read it large in a new tab.

Art by Rob Goldstein

Why is Obama ‘so adamant’ to protect Islam?

It’s the President’s job to protect and defend Constitution and to represent the interests of all citizens.

Islāmic Americans are among the people President Obama swore by oath to represent.

3.3 million Muslims live in the United States.

Art by Rob Goldstein
July 03, 2016

 

Art by Rob Goldstein
Many Americans Believe July 7, 2016

How many Americans Mr. O’Reilly?

 

Art by Rob Goldstein
Punching White Woman after Yelling I hate White People Not Hate, July 07, 2016

This is race baiting, I never thought I’d see something like this in the 21st Century.

Art by Rob Goldstein
Comey Failed to Indict Because He Didn’t Want to Change the Course of Politics July 07, 2016

I can’t find the interview in which Comey says he chose not to indict Hillary Clinton because he didn’t want to change the course of politics.

Art by Rob Goldstein
House GOP calls grow for FBI perjury probe into Clinton statements July 8 2016
Art by Rob Goldstein
The President Set This Whole Country on Fire with his Race Politics, July 10, 2016

I think you mean your ‘race politics’ Mr. Fox News Insider.

Art by Rob Goldstein
Even alot of Democrats Worry about Clinton’s Email July 11, 2016

A lot of Democrats worry about Clinton’s email, so you should worry too.

Note: this headline comes four days after Comey cleared Clinton of criminal charges.

FBI Confirms Gag Order to a Senior RepublicanI can’t find another source for this one.

Art by Rob Goldstein
Virtually Every remaining ObamaCare Exchange is on The Verge of Total Collapse July 17, 2016

Virtually? Why virtually? It’s more like a few for profit companies have pulled out, as expected.

Art by Rob Goldstein
The Clinton Campaign Should Be Worried July 23, 2016

The Dobbs Report on Trumps Speech at the Republican National Convention.

The backdrop reads, “The Republican nominee delivered a compelling 26 minute
speech.”

The only news outlet that thought Trump’s speech was compelling in a good way was Fox News.

Art by Rob Goldstein
Trump’s Russia Reference Set a Trap for Clinton July 28, 2016

According to Fox News Trump asked the Russians to hack Clinton’s email as part of a clever trap. I don’t think it worked.

Art by Rob Goldstein
Many in the Intelligence Community Fear a Hillary Presidency August 03, 2016

More manys…

Art by Rob Goldstein
NSA Whistle-blower: Agency has Hillary’s Emails August 4, 2016

Oh, and while we’re at it:

Art by Rob Goldstein
#ManyPeopleAreSaying

More manys…

Art by Rob Goldstein
The Pay for Play Scandal August 13, 2016

Fox News is using terminology normally associated with prostitutes and the backdrop reads: Email Scandal Update

Art by Rob Goldstein
Dobbs: The Foreign Donations Scandal August 13, 2016

Another day, another scandal.

These are the lies that Fox News tells its viewers every freaking day and no one holds it accountable.

And when Fox News isn’t lying about Hillary and Obama it’s talking heads spout bullet points from White Supremacists.

Slaves were Housed and Fed it was all good.
Slaves were well fed and had decent longings provided by the Government.

O’Reilly’s idiotic comment is historically inaccurate and inflammatory.

The ‘government’ did not feed and house slaves.

Slaves were fed and housed by their owners..

And this last truly dreadful headline:

Art by Rob Goldstein
They’re beating every White Person August 15, 2016

This news item is debunked on Snopes. com.

The video was falsely edited at the end to make it seem protesters had physically attacked someone. Snopes.com

Is Fox News working to incite an armed conflict?

And if so, why?

What do you think?

RG 2016

updated to add quote by Bill O’Reilly

Save

Save

Save

Save

Every Day Evil

367818
The Asylum

When I was eight I went to live for a year with my Grandmother in Queens, New York.

I attended Russel Sage Junior High.

One of my classes was U.S. History and eventually we reached the War between the States.

The teacher described the whippings and degradation of slavery.

She asked us to imagine the horror of being bought and sold.

I had never heard the evils of slavery described by my teachers in the South.

If anything they made slavery sound cozy, often pointing out that the slaves
were housed and fed.

The teacher at Russel Sage asked the class if we could imagine what it might
be like to be a slave.

I was fresh from South Carolina and had read the Falconhurst series about a
family of slave breeders in Alabama.

I raised my hand and said: “I think it would be awful to get bred.”

“Bread?” the teacher said.

“Yes ma’am. They bred slaves for babies.”

“Where did you hear that? I’ve never heard such a thing.”

I instinctively knew that Mandingo was not a good source so I said: “People breed
livestock. Slaves was livestock.”

“Were.” She corrected. “I’ll research this tonight, and if you’re right, I’ll apologize for doubting you tomorrow.”

The next day I got an apology.

From The Character of the Southern States of America:

“By the laws of competition no one can carry on a thriving business in breeding slaves for the market, unless the rights of mothers be utterly trampled underfoot, and (to borrow Mrs, Stowe’s phrase, babies be sold by the pound; 2, The right of chastity be utterly denied to every slave woman, and the right of rape be sharply conceded to the master ; 3, All right of a slave to a wife or children, as well as to property or to a native soil, be totally exploded ; 4, The unlimited use of the whip be given to the master. Every one of these things is not only a stern reality, (and if you do not know them, I must say it is you that are ignorant, not I that misrepresent,) but they are even so cherished that no man in the South could publicly speak against any of them, without being tarred and feathered, or otherwise violently driven out.”  The Character of the Southern States of America

The word “barbarism” in its contemporary sense is variously interpreted as meaning either a technologically advanced but extremely exploitative and oppressive society (e.g. a victory and world domination by Nazi Germany and its Fascist allies); a collapse of technological civilization due to Capitalism causing a Nuclear War or ecological disaster; or the one form of barbarism bringing on the other.” Barbarian Defined

We can’t win our war with barbarism, we can only win the battles.

Imagine a world that gives certain men the right of rape.

We don’t stop to consider the everyday evil we visit on the enslaved.

The extraordinary cruelty that becomes the background of daily life.

To lose the freedom to feed, house and care for your own body.

To be born into a world that denies you an education to keep you enslaved.

Barbarism is not stupid. It makes contingency plans when facing defeat.

Consider that as early as 1822 slavers discussed alternate forms of slavery:

“The average price of tradesmen and others, bought and sold in Charleston, is also considerably higher than that of field slaves, whereby the interest on capital is proportionally enhanced.  Where they have not families to keep up the stock, the maintenance of two, for one efficient workman, should not be charged against them, but the insurance on life must be substituted, which, it is presumed, would there be very high. Sufficient data are not at hand to form a precise estimate of the whole expense of a Charleston black mechanic or house servant. But from the above statement, it must greatly exceed that of the field slaves. And when the draw-backs from his efficiency are considered, it is probable that the labor of white men will, on the whole, be as cheap as that of the slave. Thoughts on a Slave Revolt 1822

We win the battle against overt slavery only to have it reappear in a new form:

“In 1860, failing to solve its part of the world’s problem of equity in human relationships, the commonwealth clashed with the dominant idea of the period. In the championship of their system the planters and their neighbors were defeated, and their system was shattered as far as it could be by its victorious enemies encamped upon the field. But the pendulum swings again. Facts of human nature and the laws of civilized social welfare are too stubborn for the theories of negrophiles as well as of negrophobes. The slave labor problem has disappeared, but the negro problem remains.” The Slave Labor Problem in the Charleston District 1906

What was the solution to the problem of emancipated people of color?

283258
Unmitigated lawlessness and terror

Unmitigated lawlessness and terror.

We like to believe that evil and barbarism dwell outside of ourselves.

I often see people refer to the victory of the Allies over the Nazis as the defeat of evil.

This same claim is often made about the fall of the Berlin Wall.

“Ronald Reagan defeated evil!”

No he didn’t.

Evil adapts and waits for us to stop looking.

Before we know it new camps are built and fresh slaves captured and tortured.

Evil becomes invisible until its crimes are such a stain on the collective soul that they can no longer be ignored:

Video: Prison Guards Callously Laugh as Mentally Ill Man Dies in Front of Them

“the greatest evil perpetrated is the evil committed by nobodies, that is, by human beings who refuse to be persons”
Hannah Arendt

 

 

 

 

 

Save

Save

Save

Save

Portrait of Ayn Rand and Edie Sedgwick

 

Art by Rob Goldstein
Portrait of Ayn Rand and Edie Sedgwick

Andy’s Chest – Lou Reed
Community Audio

Save

Save

Portrait of Ayn Rand, Ronald Reagan and Mitt Romney

Art by Rob Goldstein
“Life is a blur of Republicans and meat.” Zippy
 

The Talking HeadsRemain in Light
Once in a Lifetime
Community Audio

 

“Who the Hell’s Voting for Donald Trump?”

Art by Rob Goldstein
When contemplating college liberals, you really regret once again that John Walker is not getting the death penalty. We need to execute people like John Walker in order to physically intimidate liberals, by making them realize that they can be killed, too. Otherwise, they will turn out to be outright traitors. Ann Coulter, 2002

This morning I got an email from old friend in London.

Writing about Trump, he asked, “Who the Hell’s voting for Donald Trump?”

I told him I’d show him.

I hoard information; I always have.

Before the internets, I kept news clippings, old flyers, and plenty of books.

When I was a kid, I read encyclopedias and textbooks for fun.

Now I have a vast digital library of music, films, television, images, and articles.

Between 2009 and 2011 I collected photographs of people at Tea Party demonstrations.

I also collected racist political propaganda and screen shots of death threats  to President Obama on Twitter and right-wing blogs.

Trump supporters occupy an inverse version of the United States where racism is a Christian Virtue and disdain for Human Rights is a mark of strength.

Their America treats ethnic and sexual minorities with contempt and violence.

“Who the Hell’s voting for Donald Trump?”

To begin with, many of Trump’s supporters belong to a coalition of white
supremacists and neo-nazis that politically organized in the late 1980’s.

Their movement is profiled in a 1991 documentary, Blood in the Face.

The conspiracy theories, racist rhetoric,  and threats of violence that we hear from the Trump campaign and Trump’s surrogates reflect the sensibilities of this movement.

The leaders of this coalition proudly describe a political strategy of taking over the U.S. government, office by office, starting with school boards, until every branch of government reflects a neo-nazi, white supremacist agenda.

Below is the official trailer for Blood in the Face:

 

I gathered the images in this post between 2000 and 2015.

I don’t know the source and intend no copyright infringement.

A heads up before we start:

I include a lynching postcard, which were popular among whites in the South of the early 20th Century.

These pictures best illustrate what Trump’s supporters mean by ‘personal liberty‘.

If you don’t want to see these photos please stop reading.

However, if you’re unsure of why Democrats need your vote in this election I urge you to continue.

“Who the Hell’s voting for Donald Trump?”

Art by Rob Goldstein
Hang ’em high!

The photo above predates 2011 because Ted Kennedy is on the enemies list. Ted Kennedy died August 25, 2009.

Art by Rob Goldstein

The shot above speaks for itself.

Art by Rob Goldstein
God Will Guide the Hand that Strikes You – July 16 2008

During Obama’s first campaign right-wing websites regularly called for his assassination.

Below is a detail from a 2009 cartoon published in the New York Post shortly after President Obama’s inauguration.

Art by Rob Goldstein
No Country for Porch-Monkeys New York Post, 2009

Porch monkey: commonly used in the United States as a derogatory term against African-Americans.  It refers to Blacks as lazy.  As if they have nothing better to do than to sit at their front porch of their home. Quora

Below is the cartoon in full:

Art by Rob Goldstein

Do I see two cops who’ve shot and killed an innocent porch monkey?

This image provides a compelling context for the increased police shootings over the past eight years; especially as the right-wing echo chamber tries to blame President Obama for increasing racial tensions by being Black.

Is it possible that the derogatory and inflammatory rhetoric of white racists are in part to blame for the inflamed racial tensions that plague our nation?

Art by Rob Goldstein
Obama as African Witch Doctor

“If she gets to pick her judges, nothing you can do, folks,” Mr. Trump said, as the crowd began to boo. He quickly added: “Although the Second Amendment people — maybe there is, I don’t know.” Donald Trump August 10, 2016.

Art by Rob Goldstein
Protester at a Tea Party Protest 2009
Art by Rob Goldstein
From a 2009 right wing blog.
Art by Rob Goldstein
The Cleveland Tea Party 2009 protest-He listens to Fox News

He listens to Fox News? Here’s what he heard:

Art by Rob Goldstein
Fox Nation
Art by Rob Goldstein
The sign in the background reads: This Change Sucks!

Art by Rob Goldstein

So what’s the goal of this organized movement of rich libertarians, racists, and neo-nazis?

Do they want this violence?

Art by Rob Goldstein
Death Threat via Twitter

 

Art by Rob Goldstein
Racist death threat against Obama via Twitter, 2011.

They say they want a return to the good old days.

Art by Rob Goldstein
Lynch Em All

Have a look at the good old days:

Art by Rob Goldstein
The Omaha Courthouse Lynching of 1919 – The racist mob that tortured and murdered Will Brown pose for the camera

Will Brown was accused of assaulting a white woman.

He was 41 years old and suffered from acute rheumatism.

From Nebraska Studies.org:

Brown ended up in the hands of the crazed mob. He was beaten into unconsciousness. His clothes were torn off by the time he reached the building’s doors. Then he was dragged to a nearby lamp pole on the south side of the courthouse at 18th and Harney around 11:00 p.m. The mob roared when they saw Brown, and a rope was placed around his neck. Brown was hoisted in the air, his body spinning. He was riddled with bullets. His body was then brought down, tied behind a car, and towed to the intersection of 17th and Dodge. There the body was burned with fuel taken from nearby red danger lamps and fire truck lanterns. Later, pieces of the rope used to lynch Brown were sold for 10 cents each. Finally, Brown’s charred body was dragged through the city’s downtown streets.

 

Art by Rob Goldstein
The good old days as remembered by Rick Tyler

Progressives who think that racists and homophobes will politely stand down because of a Civil Rights Act or a decision by the Supreme that protects the 4th Amendment rights of Gays are wrong.

The best illustration is Ann Coulter, a rich white career woman who argues against women’s rights:

“If we took away women’s right to vote, we’d never have to worry about another Democrat president”
Ann Coulter 2007

Tax breaks for women of her class are more important than her right to vote.

But that’s the point: women of her class don’t suffer the consequences of their political decisions.

The bigots with whom Ann Coulter toys will never stand down because they think they have a divine right to control the bodies and minds of people of color, gays, the poor and women.

They want a world in which they treat the rest of us like property.

Winning the fight for our rights as citizens is the beginning of another battle; the fight to keep those rights.

We have to fight now and always.

If you’re thinking of sitting out this election I ask you to consider
these words from a man who died in the fight for your right to vote:

Art by Rob Goldstein
Don’t be afraid to do what’s Right

Below is a video of clip from the 1991 Documentary ‘Blood in the Face’ .

If you have the time to watch it, do.

These are the forces wealthy GOP elites thought they could manipulate and control:

 

Art by Rob Goldstein
Everything you need to vote

Here is a link to the full documentary film: Blood in the Face, 1991

Save

Save

Save

Save

Save

Save

Save

Save

Save

Save

Save

Save

Biohazards

Art by Rob Goldstein
Self Portrait #8

He worked

for the day

of the great

revolution

when he will

come first

and be safe

and live like

the happy

trash

on TV

but the

revolution

was

murdered

or imprisoned

Or slowly

tortured

on the

streets.

He

escaped

into

loony bins

where

he took pills

and acquired

the sanity

of one

who

swallows

self-loathing.

…and he waits…

…still…

 

Rob Goldstein (c) 2014-2016

Save

Save

Save

Save

Save

The Wet Sheets

Warning: this piece may be triggering

 

Art by Rob Goldstein
The Wet Sheets

I leap to my doctor’s

womb

expecting a Mother

that doesn’t exist.

Dust runs through the

umbilicus and collects

to form fingers and lips.

Here is my birth:

in the projects of

Charles Town

my Father beats

off and I

coagulate

on the ceiling.

Now bound

by wet sheets

placenta

seeps into

my veins.

Art by Rob Goldstein
Self Portrait-Number 9

Late Spring or Early

Autumn

I am shaped by the

language of Psychiatry.

Projection or Denial?

I want the boy across

the ward;

he has skin and hair.

He rustles his sheets

a bead of sweat runs

down my cheek

it lands on the one

spot between

my thighs

where pleasure is pain

and the wait for more is

eternity–

Monday and the floor is lime green.

I won’t be mistaken for dead.

On Tuesday I cross-country ski in

my socks;

I see a streak of white and shiver.

Wednesday and the walls–

I hear a light; but it doesn’t chime here.

Familiarity breeds self-contempt.

A saint vies with the devil for special

favors from God.

 

Rob Goldstein (c) 2016

Save

Save

in the dark

In the Dark
                           

in the dark

in my bed

in the wall

his tongue

my ear

his tongue

my mouth

his head

my thighs

wet silence

red blood

he enters

he fills me

my mouth

his breath

my face

his knife

i watch

in the dark

in my bed

in the wall

RG (c) 2015

Save

Save

…and feel ashamed…

Art by Rob Goldstein
Writings from homeless people in Clarion Alley

At night I hide beneath my blanket like a
boy afraid of the dark and feel ashamed.

I hear sweet music and remember
something good and feel ashamed.

I see photos of murder victims and wonder
what they thought in those last moments
and feel ashamed.

I walk past weddings and imagine the bride #
and groom screwing and feel ashamed.

I reach for the ghost of a long dead
lover and feel ashamed.

I open my eyes to discover that I’m
still alive and feel ashamed.

(c) Rob Goldstein 2016

Quiet Room

Art by Rob Goldstein
Quiet Room

“Great Hera’s Ghost!” shouts Nurse Gabriel. “You’ve been
asleep all day!”

He blows taps; the quiet room cracks

and opens.

Nurse Gabriel loosens my straps:

“How like an animal in a trap.” he says. “They
chew their legs off you know.”

Applause! Applause! From the Quiet room!

His hands can barely control themselves.

(c) Rob Goldstein 2016 All Rights Reserved

The Seclusion Room

Art by Rob Goldstein
The Seclusion Room

I want food and glare at the
safety window in the door.

I pause before I rap.

I know that if I rap I’ll be hungry; my guts
will boil but someone will bring me food.

But if I rap my guts will boil and I might be
ignored.

I wonder if it’s worth the risk.

Art by Rob Goldstein
Self Portrait #10

The door is locked and I have 4 points

1 for each arm and 1 for each leg

I scratch my thigh as I

slide down

a mile wide

awning

and land quietly in a bin of wrist
tags.

Superman swoops me up and
flies me away

we are weightless….

He says “You can have the fortress
of solitude. Everything is yours.”

I scratch my thigh and yawn.

RG (c) 2016

Save

Save

these sad sights

Art by Rob Goldstein
Scars

 

these sad sights:

a kitten drowned
in the rain

a puppy killed
on my bed

my childhood
buddy shot
dead by his

dad.

these sad sights:

the morgue shots
of my murdered
mother

a young man
grasping in
terror
for breath

the broken

body

of my Father
defeated by

antisemitism.

this sad sight

to come:

my day of dying

without knowing

the why.

 

(c) Rob Goldstein 2016