It was 20 Years Ago Today

20-204:20 PM 1986
When I take my medication the shrinks say I am rational.
Rational is shuffling into the day room to see what’s on T.V.
Someone likes classic T.V.
I jus’ want you to be my wife, Loosey!”
I want to leave this place but I don’t know how.
“Coffee?” sez Viv.
“No!” I reply.
She says OK and backs away.
My shrink is a Carrie Fischer hologram from Brazil.
He says I am someone who goes from “Walla pain to walla pain”.
I want to shove that smug little smirk through his skull
Instead I smile like I’m Lucy putting the hit on Ricky for a new hat.
I’m sick of being crazy.
I don’t want to do it anymore.
It has side effects.
The meds make me fat.
I was trim when I applied for this job.
Now they want me to re-apply.
More outpatient clinics.
More idiotic drool from CyberKinetic Therapy.
More shame for not getting better.
So I roam this Unit.
I learn every molecule of the moment.
4:20PM 2006
I am under my blankets waiting for death.
I lay here, it is warm, sometimes I struggle, when I feel death’s grip.
But I lay here, eyes closed, perhaps half lidded, looking through windows, that open on the brightly lit pages, of a Superman comic, in Queens.
It is warm
I am at peace
I lay here,
Now a heartbeat
In the silence
In the dark
RG 2015

I stand quietly

Dirty, Naked & Happy

I stand quietly while you do somersaults on the bed as you aren’t being naughty, you are just trying to get your out of sync body under control.

I stand quietly by the toilet door every time you need to go, and come with you around the house, and sometimes even just across the room, because I know you can feel truly frightened when you are not near me.

I stand quietly at the supermarket checkout while everyone stares at you barking like a dog and blowing raspberries on my arms to cope with the buzzing lights.

I stand quietly while you tell the baffled shop owner that you are looking for shoes that feel hard like splintered wood because your skin can’t bear soft things.

I stand quietly when the attendant gives us scornful looks when I ask for the key to the disabled toilet because the hand dryer…

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Uncensored CIA Torture Report Demanded By Lawyers In Iraq War Abuse Case – 20 March 2015

Lucas 2012 Infos

RT logoLawyers for two men, who claim they were tortured after capture by UK forces, are demanding access to an uncensored version of the CIA torture report from the Ministry of Defence (MoD) team charged with investigating abuses.

Solicitors Leigh Day, representing the men, has a long record of taking on similar cases, including the recent Al Sweady Inquiry into allegations of abuse by British soldiers.

Their clients are two Pakistani nationals, Yunus Rahmatullah and Amanatullah Ali, both of whom were captured in Iraq in 2004 by British special forces soldiers and held for a decade before being released by the US last year.

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