I realized this morning that I’m very active for a person with a total disability.
I don’t have down time. My mind is always going.
I’ve always been like this.
When I was a 12 I had a number of chemistry sets and two decent microscopes.
I used to dissect insects.
One day a friend told me that if a guy rubbed himself long enough white stuff came out.
The fish that he described in the white stuff piqued my interest.
I set to rubbing and sure enough, white stuff came out, but the way it came out was a complete surprise.
I thought I had damaged my penis because I needed to pee but couldn’t.
I wondered how I was going to explain my broken penis to my Grandmother.
However, I had the white stuff and used a dropper to place it on a slide.
There they were, thousands of them.
Later, after I peed, I collected another sample of white stuff to see if the fish were still there.
Checking on their status became a twice a day ritual.
(c) Rob Goldstein 2016