Art by Rob Goldstein

Dissociative Identity Disorder: The Protector

Protector alters save the original and other personalities from intolerable or life threatening environments and people.

A Protector can be any age and gender

The reason I’m female is that women had the power; and our Mother was nicer to girls.

The day I became a protector Mother was beating the little boy with a stick.

We were five.

Mother stopped and I grabbed the stick and bashed her as hard as I could.

She was so shocked that she stopped using the stick on us.

There are other protectors, such as The Narrator and Mateo.

People Like Me
The Narrator and Mateo are Protector alternates.

I protect the body.

Why am I still needed?

A survey of 5,877 people across the United States, found that people who had experienced physical or sexual assault at some point in their life are likely to attempt suicide

Nearly 22% of people who had been raped had also attempted suicide at some point in their life.

People with histories of childhood sexual assault combined with prolonged periods of  physical and psychological abuse have the most successful suicide attempts  About Health

If you’re feeling suicidal call your doctor, psychiatrist or dial 911.


You can also call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-8255

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21 thoughts on “Dissociative Identity Disorder: The Protector

  1. Kudos to you Rob … another thought-provoking post and you are definitely helping others. Never doubt it! I love the music and more importantly, both your paintings of the sirens. Lol!

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  2. The mind is a ceaselessly amazing entity. The fact that it created these incredible coping mechanisms to allow you to survive unspeakable experiences. Your revelations are always fascinating, and leave me without the right words, Robert. Thank you for your gifts, and for the generosity in sharing them. 💕

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    1. Thank you for this comment. I suspect that some of my writing leaves people with nothing to say or feeling as if they don’t have the right words.

      Thank you for reading the post and leaving a comment–it helps me to understand the interaction between the work and the reader.

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  3. As horrific as your experiences have been -you are doing a great service to others by sharing what you have and linking it in a way that gives people a solution. Good stuff, Rob 🙂

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    1. Thank you…

      It pleases me to know that doing this helps others.

      I’ve seen literature on why people with DID need to be careful about how they discuss the illness because being open is against the core of what we think we must do to survive.

      There is a part of me that thinks it makes life worse to post this openly and another part that thinks that we are the lucky beneficiaries of resources that many people don’t have and are therefore obligated to speak out.

      I don’t believe for a single minute that anyone ever ‘chooses’ to be homeless but I know for a fact that this culture will do anything to avoid making the systemic changes we must make to end it again.

      I say end homelessness again because we in the U.S. had ended homelessness with the New Deal. Yes, there was a skid row, but that was nothing like the sadistic cruelty of a mental health system that sends a mentally ill men and women to die on our streets under the despicable pretense of protecting their civil rights.

      If I can do something to end this crime then I must.

      There is a part of me that believes that if you don’t see homelessness as a form of execution you’re not really seeing it for what it is.

      From that perspective, persistently speaking out against homelessness is a moral imperative.

      Thank you for your comment.

      It lifted my spirits.


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