Art by Rob Goldstein

The Protector

Protector alters save the original or other personalities from intolerable or life threatening environments and people.

A Protector can be any age and gender

The reason I’m female is that women had all the real power in my family.

The day I became a protector my Mother was beating us with a broom stick.

When she stopped I picked up the stick and hit her with it as hard as I could.

She was so shocked that she stopped using the stick on us.

Today I am still protecting the body.

Only now I protect it from us.

Why am I still needed?

In a survey of 5,877 people across the United States, it was found that people who had experienced physical or sexual assault at some point in their life also had a high likelihood of attempting to take their own life at some point:

  • Nearly 22% of people who had been raped had also attempted suicide at some point in their life.

  • Approximately 23% of people who had experienced a physical assault had also attempted suicide at some point in their life.

  • These rates of suicide attempts increased considerably among people who had experienced multiple incidents of sexual (42.9%) or physical assault (73.5%). They also found that a history of sexual molestation, physical abuse as a child, and neglect as a child were associated with high rates of suicide attempts (17.4% to 23.9%)  About Health

    If you’re feeling suicidal call your doctor, psychiatrist or dial 911.

    You can also call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-8255

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21 thoughts on “The Protector

  1. The mind is a ceaselessly amazing entity. The fact that it created these incredible coping mechanisms to allow you to survive unspeakable experiences. Your revelations are always fascinating, and leave me without the right words, Robert. Thank you for your gifts, and for the generosity in sharing them. 💕

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    1. Thank you for this comment. I suspect that some of my writing leaves people with nothing to say or feeling as if they don’t have the right words.

      Thank you for reading the post and leaving a comment–it helps me to understand the interaction between the work and the reader.

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    1. Thank you…

      It pleases me to know that doing this helps others.

      I’ve seen literature on why people with DID need to be careful about how they discuss the illness because being open is against the core of what we think we must do to survive.

      There is a part of me that thinks it makes life worse to post this openly and another part that thinks that we are the lucky beneficiaries of resources that many people don’t have and are therefore obligated to speak out.

      I don’t believe for a single minute that anyone ever ‘chooses’ to be homeless but I know for a fact that this culture will do anything to avoid making the systemic changes we must make to end it again.

      I say end homelessness again because we in the U.S. had ended homelessness with the New Deal. Yes, there was a skid row, but that was nothing like the sadistic cruelty of a mental health system that sends a mentally ill men and women to die on our streets under the despicable pretense of protecting their civil rights.

      If I can do something to end this crime then I must.

      There is a part of me that believes that if you don’t see homelessness as a form of execution you’re not really seeing it for what it is.

      From that perspective, persistently speaking out against homelessness is a moral imperative.

      Thank you for your comment.

      It lifted my spirits.


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