You want to make it right with your Mother, but she is gone; so you look for her in other people.
You find people who are like her and try to make them love you.
The shadows you describe are a good sign, because it means you can see the replication before it is complete.
Your ability to see that you are in danger means that you are better able to protect yourself.
People yield to each other when they truly accept and love each other.
They yield by mutual consent.
What you are used to is love as warfare and you as hostage.
You look for emotional vampires.
You invite them into your life and they feed on you.
You will always have to guard against your attraction to people who can’t love.
But no one has the right to judge your perception of the difference between right and wrong.
Not taking a stand against people who choose to harm others places us all at risk.
You are no better than anyone else is and no one else is better than you are.
Your awareness of the divine defines you; you see that life is magic.
Your innate awareness of this fills you with the love you struggle to express.
This spirit of love makes you hateful to the soulless.
But it’s not just you Bobby.
You survived a Mother who in her twisted love for you, wanted you dead.
You will have to remember the selfish ignorance that raped your body, it is horrifying, but we must do it.
With all of our problems and pain, we are lucky because you are our soul
and you are intact.
Adults bring the fruit of wisdom into the world.
That is our job and why we must get well.
Know that I love you and that I am here to protect you until you can protect yourself,
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