Psychotherapy is a process of denial, acceptance and change.
I must change my internal perceptions of myself.
I am not stupid.
I am not lazy.
I am not a pervert.
Each word imposed on me before I learned
to understand ‘I am.”
I’ve had two sessions of EMDR therapy with plenty
of time between sessions for me to process the
It’s taken five years for me to develop enough trust
in my therapist to go ahead with EMDR.
EMDR opens up communication between
alternates and two of my youngest ones
are sharing their memories with me.
Some of these memories are terrible.
Who wants to remember the pain and isolation of an
Who wants to remember being raped?
To accept is to fully own each memory in its fullness.
I must accept these memories as mine.
Undoing means grieving the loss of who I might
have been had the abuse not happened.
Sometimes it hurts when treatment works.
This is when you must choose not to run.
(C) Rob Goldstein 2016-2017