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Dissociative Identity Disorder: Social Media

Here’s how my version of DID works on social media:

A different alternate manages each social media account
except WordPress.

All of my alternates use WordPress.

As usual, I’m the last to know when an alternate takes over
an account; my Partner noticed changes to the Twitter

Partner: Who’s running the Twitter account?

Me: Whattaya mean?

Partner:  I mean, I don’t know that guy.

Me: Lemme see.

I open the Twitter account and see Bob’s picture.

Me: Bob runs that account.

Partner:  Who’s he?

Me: A radical fag.

Partner:  He’s intense.

Partner doesn’t know Bob because Bob was the first in a series of
adult alternates.

Bob was the host personality from age 20 to age 30.

At thirty, a new host slowly evolved into Rob.

Why do I have  different alters for different stages of life?

Some people with DID respond to social cues about age by
creating a new person with a new name.

It’s not a conscious process.

The world wants its thirty-somethings mature and accomplished.

The switch from Bob to Rob meant a move to San Francisco.

Thinking that one becomes another person by moving or changing
names is the way a child thinks and that is the core of my DID.

The real self is a frightened child.

Bob and Rob are alike in different ways.

Bob is more idealistic, more passionate and confrontational than
the older alters.

My alters don’t go away.

They emerge as the need arises, even the youngest ones.

Bob sees himself as a Warrior.

Bob woke up and took over the Twitter account when Trump became President.

It is as if my Mother rose from her grave as a narcissistic toad with
bleached hair.

The presidency of Donald Trump is the most triggering event of my adult excluding the AIDS epidemic.

Bob is fighting like Hell on Twitter to stop our abusive Mother from hurting us again.

(c) Rob Goldstein, November 2016


20 thoughts on “Dissociative Identity Disorder: Social Media

  1. I’m sorry that your mom hurt you. I’m glad you have a warrior in you. I try to find mine.some days are harder than others.

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    1. I’m sorry my Mom did that too My biggest problem is the one that has panic attacks when I try to leave the house. I still can’t figure out why that happens. My therapist thinks it’s anger. It seems trite to say that some days are better than others but it’s true.


      1. Panic attacks are a bear to have and to try and understand. I don’t flush the toilet in the middle of the night if I have to pee. I know tmi but I’m honest to the core. I panic if I do. I decided not to try to figure out why, I assume the answer won’t be a good one! I used to think if I understood it I could fix it, but that hasn’t always been the case. I see nothing as trite. I have better and worse days too on different challenges I have. Some days I panic if I leave the house, on those days I do my own therapy of just making it outside the front door and sitting there until it lessens, then I move out to the grass inch by inch. Now if I could just have people come over to the house and not panic. House means safe to me and that part I do understand.

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      2. It’s a constant battle. Some nights I sleep with the lights on because when I turn them off I have the sensation of someone sitting on my bed. It’s so weird. I know that it’s some kind of body memory but it feels so real.


      3. I understand the real ness and the battle. There is always a light on in this house. I always think I hear something so I’m constantly jerking my head up to make sure no one is there. Which they can’t be. My bedroom door is locked. It’s just deep seeded ( is that how that’s spelled) fear rooted in trauma. I know that but it never makes it easier. So I sleep with a box fan and ear plugs and a whole lot of pillows. I wrote a blog a few weeks ago about my sleeping issues. I think it’s called sleeping

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  2. Interesting… Have you heard of Fernando Pessoa?… He was a poet he used to write using several alters, and did so in a very concise and quite perfect way. Thanks for sharing this post about You. 😀☀️

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  3. Hey Rob, This is really interesting. I’m currently in the early stages of drafting a short 2000 word fiction story about a girl recovering /in recovery with DID ( if that makes sense) I don’t want to make it a sensational piece. I want my character to come off with her dignity. I may need to ask you a few questions. Unfortunately , because of the word count I can’t go too much into DID because I’m plotting the story in such a way that my P is coming to the end of a radical new treatment and a chance encounter with someone from her past – brings out an Alter -who came out as someone to defend herself and is rather vengeful.. I hope you don’t mind if I maybe ask you a few questions or if you could point me to some posts of yours that you have written about living with DID xx

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  4. I really enjoyed reading this…
    I enjoy getting to know you more…all of who you are..
    I think we all have sort of scared child inside us …a stronger person inside things like that, that act out or come out at times…Please understand I am not knocking DID or anything I would never do that I am just thinking out loud to you and asking questions …Hope that you don’t mind…trying to learn…
    Huggggs n ♥

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