My conversion to Catholicism required two years of study and
meditation.
I was six months into my study when my mentor (catechist) gave
me a crucifix to take home and hang on a wall.
He asked me to meditate on the crucifix an hour each evening for
a week.
At the end of the week we met.
The Vocations Director from the Conventional Order of St. Francis
joined us.
I was a deeply committed and my mentor felt I had a vocation.
The exercise was a test of my vocation.
My mentor asked what I thought the crucifix meant.
I replied that it symbolized the best of human nature, tortured and
executed by the worst of human nature:
“The crucifix is a symbol of the struggle to transcend the beast, which is not an external force, but a force within each of us. It causes a spiritual death that God wants us to transcend by treating other people with the compassion we would under their circumstances. It’s not as simple as giving to charity. We must ask ourselves how we want other people to treat us if we are hungry, lonely, grieving, or incarcerated. We must love the other as we love ourselves.”
With this answer, and a few written tests, I was accepted as a novitiate into the Conventual Order of St Francis of Assisi.
I planned to enter the friary as a Novitiate upon my baptism to continue the process of discernment.
I’ve never understood the kind of Christian who revises the Gospel to comport with a political point of view.
To me, this is spiritual death.
The reason I didn’t enter the Order is a topic for a different post.
One does not have to be Christian, or believe in God to grasp the meaning of the story of Christ and learn from it.
The most powerful force in creation chose a lowly birth among the lowliest people in the Roman Empire.
This story of how God chose to incarnate is the central point of the Gospel, the Good News.
The good news is this: God loves all of His Creation regardless of race, creed, religion, sexual orientation, or class; His Creation belongs to His Creation, all of it.
“God’s heart has a special place for the poor, so much so that he himself “became poor” (2 Cor 8:9). The entire history of our redemption is marked by the presence of the poor. Salvation came to us from the “yes” uttered by a lowly maiden from a small town on the fringes of a great empire. The Saviour was born in a manger, in the midst of animals, like children of poor families; he was presented at the Temple along with two turtledoves, the offering made by those who could not afford a lamb (cf. Lk 2:24; Lev 5:7); he was raised in a home of ordinary workers and worked with his own hands to earn his bread.” (Evangelii Gaudium, 197)
“In this context we can understand Jesus’ command to his disciples: “You yourselves give them something to eat!” (Mk 6:37): it means working to eliminate the structural causes of poverty and to promote the integral development of the poor, as well as small daily acts of solidarity in meeting the real needs which we encounter. The word “solidarity” is a little worn and at times poorly understood, but it refers to something more than a few sporadic acts of generosity.” (Evangelii Gaudium, 187)
Let no one consider themselves to be the “armour” of God while planning and carrying out acts of violence and oppression! May no one use religion as a pretext for actions against human dignity and against the fundamental rights of every man and woman, above all, the right to life and the right of everyone to religious freedom!
Pope Francis Sunday, 21 September 2014
Love like a signal you call
Touching my body my soul
Bring to me, you to meet me here
Home be the temple of your heart
Home be the body of your love
Just like Holy water to my lips
Hey
Yes I do know how I survive
Yes I do know why I’m alive
To love and be with you
Day by day by day by day
Happy Easter!
You give me a fresh and deeper perspective Robert. Your explanation and understanding of the Crucifix, I must honestly say, sinks in deep. God’s love is all embracing and no prejudice. We are the one’s who create the conditions and the prejudice. Thank you for this beautiful post.
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You’re welcome. Your comment made my day. 🙂
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Love this post, Robert. Jesus’ message was one of radical love, compassion, and forgiveness. His resurrection story I take to heart, and apply to my life journey.
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Thanks, Kitt!
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Thank you Kitt. His story and message are central to my life.
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This is a very complex post, Robert, so many links to explore. Thank you for that. One question..how far did you get in the Franciscan process and why did you leave ?
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Well…I was a week away from moving into the friary and switched.
Which is another story….
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A story for another day. You got awfully close. 💖
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Yes I did get close but it was not to be.
I did what I wanted to do in a different environment.
I went to work for a non-profit that specialized in providing residential mental health care to the homeless mentally ill. I did this work for over a decade and I consider the time a time of active devotion to the God of my understanding.
One of the reasons it is so painful for me to walk San Francisco is that I recognize so many of the people and I can also see that they are dying.
My agency couldn’t give our ‘clients’ enough time.
Thirty days is not enough to heal a lifetime of abuse plus the horrific trauma of homelessness.
One of the reasons psychiatric hospital stays were so long in the past was that real psychiatry understood that to get healthy patients needed structure, nurturing, time to think, time to process, and also time to reintegrate into families and communities.
What we call a mental health system is nothing more than a network of bad AA meeting chaired by secretaries who still drink.
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The modern system is horrific, and ineffective. But I have a different view of those long term psychiatric stays, for very personal reasons. My paternal grandfather was kept for 2 decades. Maintenance, not healing. There was good reason so many were closed down. There has to be some sort of happy medium. I’m honored to know of your reason to leave the friary, your mission was so noble, and explains much about your feelings today. Thanks, Robert.
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Thank you…I love it when I have the concentrate to engage people…regarding the discussion: I don’t mean custodial care.
I mean active treatment.
When I was in my 20’s I worked for a long term
Freudian based psychiatric hospital in New Haven.
The average length of stay was two years.
Family therapy was an essential feature of treatment.
We allowed patients to leave the Campus when they
were well enough but we provided structure, psychotherapy
art, we had an in house school because most of the patients
were young:
We had twice weekly all staff meeting to discuss the patients
treatment plans.
Staff members entered therapy as a requirement of the job.
Patients got better.
I loved that job.
The problems of State Institutions are not unlike the problems we
have with our private prisons.
The Federal and State governments must provide oversight.
In San Francisco, what’s left of the public mental health system
is under strict oversight.
It’s a simple fact that some people require custodial care…the idea
is to respect their rights as citizens by making sure that they are
not abused.
We threw out an entire system because we deemed it entirely bad
but we replaced it with nothing
Custodial institutions at their worst are not a tenth as brutal
as being an elderly homeless woman who has lost a leg to
a treatable staph infection asleep in a broken wheelchair
under a brutal noon sun on a busy San Francisco Street.
What could she possibly do to deserve that?
When we consider damage, we must also consider the damage we do to our communities.
We have forced people to pretend they don’t see a sight that most civilized people find shocking.
Could this be part of the reason for Trump?
The daily numbing takes a toll on the soul.
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Soul-numbing. I sadly agree. sigh….
Glad that you had the perspective of seeing it done right. Maybe, we’ll get back to that some day.
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We can start by voting in this election. Hillary Clinton has a mental health plan.
Politics produced this devastation and only politics can fix it.
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I love this. A little known secret about me – I was going to become missionary at 19, had the funding and everything to go to the UK but when the school said I had to wear skirts I said no way! haha. I had just come out of a terrible theological time where I was trying to break free from legalistic abuses. It is been an awful, horrible struggle for me over the years dealing with sexuality and faith issues even to the point where I felt just plain crazy. There isn’t resolution yet and there may never be. All I can say is that, By the Grace of God. Christ is savior, God is good – even if casts me to hell I certainly deserve it. He will always be important to me because I know he is God.
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I don’t think there is a Hell. I can’t conceptualize a merciful god consigning any of his creation to eternal suffering. Hell was a garbage dump outside of the gates of Jerusalem (I may have the location a bit wrong) The God I know wouldn’t even toss Michelle Bachmann into it; and she deserves it. 🙂
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I’m an atheist who practices Buddha’s teachings, but I love your response regarding the crucifix. Beautifully said.
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Thank you Bradly!
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Wonderful post. I’ve been sort of getting Agnostic as of late, but am interested in tapping back into my more open minded side.
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I’m glad you like my post. There is nothing wrong with being an agnostic. It’s easy to wonder where God is, or even if there is a God when you consider the vile people who say they know God while they do everything possible to deface the planet.
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I have never understood why you have to “convert” to a religion. Why can’t you just become the faith that you want to follow? If you don’t go through the “steps” do they not allow you to worship in the church?
I think a just God would allow you to pray, follow His words and works and not really care what denomination you called yourself.
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Having faith and having knowledge of how one achieves faith and grace are two different things.
Some denominations of Christianity are loose in their conversion criteria.
But Catholicism is firmly rooted in Judaism, which requires that people be educated in
the Torah and Jewish tradition.
The most noteworthy feature of the Eucharist is that Priest reads two passages from the Old Testament to provide a context
for the reading from the Gospel.
The congregation learns how Christianity differs from Orthodox Judaism.
Christ says it best when he tells the Pharisees that a law without mercy is unjust and dead.
A friend converted to Judaism and spent three years in study before she ‘became’ a Jew and even then, her offspring would not be Jewish.
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It is so true. God loves us all because we are all part of God – no matter how we name that God (universe, energy, source). It doesn’t matter how we look like, or from what culture or religion we come (as you said). God did not create religion. Men did!
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The best religious teachings understand that God is present in all religions.
Humanity is the source of greed and hate.
I think Lucifer is a metaphor for the primal behaviors that ultimately placed us at the top of the food chain.
The question is whether we are smart enough to use the gift of reason to see that those instincts will destroy our species
if we don’t discipline our minds and learn how to control them.
If our cities are jungles it is because we have stupidly turned them into Jungles.
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I believe that we are more about to realise it today than ever before that we are destroying ourselves through intolerance and ignorance. Just the gap between the ones who do and the ones who don’t want to see is very big.
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I hope we make it through this Erika. We’re actually a pretty nice species…I think the universe wants to know itself and we’re the eyes and ears…Of course if we flip out and kill ourselves the universe will grow another set eyes and ears…
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Like you and I the majority (so I believe) has learnt from what happened and how we are able to survive or to kill ourselves. But as you say, even if we killed our species it won’t be the end. There will always be ears and eyes!
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The universe is old and by the standards of our life cycles eternal. We don’t know how many life forms have evolved intelligence and the ability to make tools only to destroy themselves.
Our planet is billions of years old.
We do know that for millions of years the most intelligent creature was the dinosaur. Their extinction was the result of a near destruction of the ecosystem, which recovered quite nicely. The death of the dinosaur gave mammals a chance to thrive and evolve. Small mammals could burrow underground to safety.
Humans are destroying the ecosystem that supports our form of life. And the fact that we allow people in leadership positions ignore science when they make policies that affect the climate means that we may be too stupid to survive. LOL…
If that’s true, the planet and the universe will go on without us.
I think it will be a shame but that’s because I like the idea of humanity finally pulling its head out of its greed so we can unite as a globe and explore other worlds.
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Wonderful words – made me quite emotional…(sorry!) You are so right, ultimately, it doesn’t matter what name we give the path we choose to walk, only that we do it with love and kindness as we search to re-unite with the Divine x
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I’m Jewish as well and, I do not mean to impune your chosen path but I am curious. What makes a Jew become catholic?
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The short answer is two years of study, some water and a priest. 🙂 The longer answer is that I’d felt a kinship with Catholicism going all the way back to early childhood. I see Catholicism as a form a of Judaism –with the Eucharist as a Passover supper that the priest presides over every Sunday. It is more complex than that but that sums it up.
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My husband was raised catholic and I’m a student of religion …I’ve often said catholics are like jews with Jesus lol
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LOL…I’m glad to hear that. I tell people that I didn’t change religions at all. I changed synagogues; love those Icons! 🙂
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And genuflection (sp?) we’re big on that too lol
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Oh don’t get me stahted on the joys of saying the Rosary! 😉
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lol
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I was staunchly agnostic for many years, until my spiritual eyes were opened. Now I believe: God is, God is love, and love isn’t supposed to hurt.
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Yes…thank you.
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I’m Jewish so…
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So am I..at least by birth…for that matter so was Joshua; who never converted…:)
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I love that name Joshua. 🙂 I like being Jewish. We are a hardy bunch… surviving the Holocaust (well most of us)
My adopted sister is Roman Catholic. 🙂 I still love her regardless of religion Rob.
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–that’s both Jewish and Catholic tradition — we must learn to love past our differences. 🙂
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