from Living a Beautiful Life
Your train has arrived: Hullaba Lulu – Chapter 9.1
Distressed and bewildered by her behavior, he blamed Donald Trump, saying,” Trump is triggering people with mental illnesses” and I agreed.
“I generally believe he thinks black people are dangerous and Mexicans are rapists,” Arnold said. “He believes that. As he perpetuates that fear to America, watch out Mueller is lying; he is after me. And so, Americans are sitting home like Roseanne and her fans, are like, oh my God, what is happening out there? And they get anxiety.” Tom Arnold
In 1991, Roseanne Barr came out as an incest survivor with DID.
I knew she was telling the truth when I read this:
“It’s like living in a maze. It’s like that old woman who keeps adding on to her house … But the parts don’t get along and some of them have some real strange ideas about how to defend ” ABC News
When Roseanne Barr refers to her alternates as having ‘strange ways to defend’, she is referring to protector alternates and gatekeeper alternates.
Protector Alternates focus on perceived threats, and often find dependence, emotional needs and close relationships (attachment) threatening.
Gatekeeper Alternates control which alters take control of the body, and when.
Pathological Narcissists are lethal to people with DID; I’m talking about dishonest and psychologically abusive men and women who invade our lives with chaos and lies and expect us to love them for it.
Abusers use our trust to inflict damage on us and never apologize for it.
Abusers don’t want friends or lovers; they want hostages.
People with DID share certain primary symptoms but each of us forms a
unique system of alternates.
I have two protectors but one of them is also a gatekeeper.
When I’m not on the Internet, I am someone named Matthew.
Matthew is a devout Catholic who has faith in human nature.
Matthew thinks pathological narcissism is an illness.
Matthew forgives the afflicted.
Another part of me has the opposite view.
That part is Bob.
Bob is the gatekeeper-protector.
Bob ‘took Matthew away’ from a ‘friend’ who has a long history
of lying to us.
‘Matthew’ knows she lies but he ignores it because he likes the
‘good’ in her.
‘Bob’ thinks she’s gaslighting, which he considers psychological abuse.
As Bob said in therapy this week, “I’m sick of this shit. Trump’s used up all
my patience for lying bitches and psychopaths.”
Matthew is morally conflicted.
This is Bob’s attitude toward Matthew:
This week Bob decided an apology for lying is a prerequisite for any
friend or president who wants to interact with Matthew.
He won’t let Matthew out to see his friend or answer her calls.
We didn’t know Bob had the power to keep the current host inside.
This is a new thing.
Is it a sign of health or a triggered response to the Psychopath in Chief ?
(c) Rob Goldstein 2018
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Please note: This post is not a defense of Roseann Barr’s behavior or comments.
Mental illness is not an excuse for bad behavior unless a patient is genuinely
out of control and in need of emergency services.