Some context.
I often write from the perspective of an alternate personality, in this case Peter, a child alternate who thinks he’s a ghost. I first posted this piece in July 2016.
Warning: Content may be triggering.
The Monsters are Back
Today was a week and now is a year.
Grief
Grieve
Grieving
It’s 1958; monsters are everywhere.
They hiss faggot as I walk with my
head bowed.
They gather in packs and surround me.
I freeze in horror and shame.
It’s 2018 and the monsters are back.
I know these monsters;
They killed me when I was five.
All material on this page (c) Rob Goldstein 2016-2018
More info: What is an alternate?
May all of our monsters be banished, my friend. This post is well worth re-sharing. The images are evocative. I hope today has been a better day. Hugs on butterfly wings
Thank you Teagan. One of my relatives is a therapist and she says some of her clients are in crisis over trump. To abuse survivors Trump’s behavior looks like physical and psychological abuse and we are horrified to see our government behave like a drunken psychopath. The fact that Trump doesn’t drink doesn’t mean his behavior is sober. His drug is power and he’s never been higher.
Well said. Hugs.
Hello Robert, it’s been awhile. I’ve been busy. You popped into my mind and I knew I needed to come and see how you were doing. Life is such a challenge no matter who you are but your life has a special kind challenge. But through it you have educated so many people to understand this exists. Sometimes we never know the reason and some we don’t want to know the reason. But I will make a point of not staying away so long this time.
SonniQ. Thank you for your support. I’m not well right now. My country feels like a housing project in the Deep South. My neighbors are the armed alcoholics and the ignorant people on Earth. That was how life felt when I was a child. I was right about the neighbors. They tortured anyone who questioned them. They would chop them up with a saw.
So well expressed Robert. I agree, the best way to heal is to help others to heal. It takes away some pain.
I also gives it meaning. For some reason the pain is more tolerable when I think it has meaning.
Fully understandable.
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Thanks for the comment and the re-blog, Jason!
Not a problem Robert!
Beautifully heartbreaking as always. Hugs!
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Wonderfully expressed
Thank you Br Andrew.
Very powerful! I am sorry you have a new alternate..Not sure if this a good thing or not, but I am pretty sure it’s protective..You needed protection and I truly hope with grieving, you can eventually heal.. <3
I don’t think this is a new alternate. I think that on the day of that event I thought I was dying and this why that alternate thinks he’s dead. Thank you for your comment…I’m lucky to have friends and family who understand and respect me.
I love your artwork for this blog post. It’s really beautiful, and I especially liked what you did with all of the “overlapping”/”reflecting” parts.
Your poems were amazing, too. Great post!
Thank you. I love virtual reality because it allows me to stage certain kinds of images. All of these are based on screenshots that I staged in VR. I appreciate your comment.
WOW!! not very original, but after reading and being touched by this post.. it seems to be the word that sticks..
have a fabulous day.
Kind Regards and feeling grateful – K
Wow is a fine word. Thank you for reading the post and taking the time to comment.
Profound absolutely profound!
Thank you Bethany!
My heart reaches out to you Robert! The pain that is, may never cease to be…but we’re here to share your sorrow and I hope that makes a difference!
Your insight is profound. The path toward healing is to accept that there may always be pain and to accept that what could have been will never be–and to use what you know and feel to help people who feel lost in their pain. I can’t think of any act more healing than the act of helping to heal others.
Wow, Robert. Painful. Powerful. Grieving the death of that innocent six year old boy who needed love and protection.
I didn’t know that I have a dead alternate until I wrote this. This is completely new work.
A saviour ?
No…Dead. He thinks he’s dead.
O.K.
Wow! That’s incredible. Very powerful.