Awards: The Disability Award

Melinda Sandor at Looking For The Light  blog nominated me for this award; she is a dedicated blogger and activist and was one of my first Featured Bloggers.

Melinda is also the driving force behind the blogging collective, Survivors Blog Here.

When I saw the name of the award my first thought was, ‘an award for being disabled?’ but based on the nominees it’s clearly an award for people who strive to transcend their disabilities and give meaning to the pain. It’s an honor to get this award. Thank you, Melinda.

The rules are to display the award badge, answer the questions, choose your own nominees, and develop your own set of questions. Melinda’s questions are so practical I’m going with hers.

Advances in Brain Imaging
Fig. 2. Example of reduced regional cerebral glucose metabolism in the anterior temporo-frontal cortices in a patient with dissociative amnesia.

Melinda’s Questions:

What was the first sign of your illness?

My first symptoms appeared when I was a child and found the name ‘Antonio’ scrawled in my schoolbooks. I was confused about my age, name and gender, which set me apart from the other children.

What is your worst symptom and how do you cope with it?

The symptoms of depression and dissociation affect memory and concentration, which makes it difficult read and write.

I often go back to a published post to discover typos and glaring gaps in logic. I cope by writing shorter pieces and relying more on photography and abstract designs for creative expression.

I’ve also stopped judging myself when I find mistakes in the work I post, although it’s frustrating to discover a flaw I would definitely have noticed a decade ago.

As for reading, I do a lot of reading I can’t remember.

This is even true of my work.

I often think I’m reading another bloggers post for the first time and discover that I’ve already liked and re-blogged it.

It’s confusing and frustrating.

What one thing about you has changed because of your struggles?

I miss reading and writing longer, more complex, stories, but I’m learning to be patient with myself, and to set more realistic timelines for achieving goals.

I am more compassionate toward other people.

What words of advice or encouragement would you give to someone else suffering?

I’m changing the last word from ‘suffering’ to ‘disabled’, because suffering does not have to define life with a chronic illness.

My advice is set goals and let go of the way you defined success when you were healthy. Give yourself plenty of time to complete those goals.

Never compare your achievements to the achievements of people who aren’t ill.

Learn new skills and practice them.

I knew absolutely nothing about photography when I became permanently disabled. I still know nothing about photography. but I’m better at it.

Name one good thing that has come out of having a chronic illness.

Now that I have the right diagnosis and treatment, I have a better understanding of the forces that shaped me as a child, and a better understanding of why I made certain self destructive decisions as a younger man. I’m forgiving because of it.

The Dissociative

What one thing do you disagree with that is widely accepted as true about your condition?

I obviously disagree with the idea that Dissociative Identify Disorder doesn’t exist. If I go to a shrink and tell her I think I have other personalities and the craziness of it is wrecking my life, I expect her to believe I believe they exist and to treat me accordingly.

I wish the United States had mental health system  that wanted to treat the brain’s mind.

If you could change only one aspect of your illness, what would it be?

Some days I get sick of feeling like I’m running in place. I want the illness to go away.

Name the one thing that works best for you for symptom relief.

I get relief from photography or throwing myself into a project. I also try to eat properly, exercise, and get a solid night’s sleep.

Based on your experience, what is one thing that you would tell someone newly diagnosed with chronic illness?

Learn as much as you can about your illness and become your own advocate.Why did you start blogging?

I started blogging to advocate for better medical treatment for people with mental illnesses.

The blog began to shift focus in 2016 and is now more focused on  art and politics., but I haven’t forgotten my roots.

My nominees

Most of the disability bloggers I know have gotten this award from Melinda.

My two nominees for this award are Dream Big, Dream Often and Jason
at Opinionated Man.

My questions for them are the same as those asked of me.

Check out Stacy Chapman’s award post at Fighting with Fibro

‘The Dissociative’ (c) Rob Goldstein All Rights Reserved


#Awards: The Sunshine Blogger Award

I got the Sunshine Blogger Award in November 2018 from Emotional Abuse Hurts.

The Sunshine Blogger Award is a peer appreciation award given to bloggers who are creative, positive, and inspiring, while spreading sunshine to the blogging community.

Thank you to emotionalabusehurts.

The Rules:

  • Thank the blogger who nominated you in a blog post and make a link back
    to their blog.
     
  • Answer the 11 questions sent to you by the person who nominated you. 
  • Nominate up to 11 new blogs to receive the award, and then write them 11 new questions. 
  • List the rules and display the Sunshine Blogger Award logo in your post and/or your blog

    Here are the questions I received and my answers:

    What was the driving force behind the creation of your blog? 

    I started this blog as a way to advocate for people with mental illnesses and to provide information about Dissociative Identity Disorder. As I get healthier, the blog evolves. I now use Art by Rob Goldstein to discover who I am as an artist and writer.  

    What was your vision for your future in blogging/writing when you first started this blog? How has that vision evolved?

    My goal in 2013 was to get well enough to return to full time work.  I now realize this is not going to happen. My vision for this blog is that it will continue to serve as a repository for information about mental health and Dissociative Identity Disorder and as a showcase for my art and writing.
     

    What age were you when you realized you loved writing? 

    I was eight.  

    How has your life changed as a result of the electronic age? Is it better/worse/the same?

    My life is better because of technology; It gives me a way to break through the isolation that seems inevitable for people with a chronic illness. New technologies offer an infinite number of ways to create content. 

    What was the very last website you visited today? 

    YouTube. I use it to watch news and documentaries. 

    What was the first website you visited when you woke up four days ago? 

    Bing. I use it to collect points. I currently have enough points for a two hundred
    dollar shopping spree at Target.

    If you could change one thing about your past, what would it be?

    I wish I had been properly diagnosed with DID when I was in my 20’s. I may have had a more productive life.

    How would your life be different today if that one thing from your past were to change?

    I might be more accomplished.

    If you have children, tell me…how did your parenting change from the time you had your first child until the time you had your last?

    I’ve never had children but I think that all adults are responsible for protecting and nurturing America’s children, even if it’s just by paying taxes to fund schools, housing, and medical care.

    Tell me about the funniest experience you’ve had in the past month.

    Alec Baldwin’s Saturday Night Live take on Trump’s ‘State of Emergency’ speech.

    What do you have planned for the upcoming holiday season?

    Easter is a time for meditation.

    If I nominate you and you have an award free blog, please view the nomination as a compliment: you are under no obligation to respond. My questions are the same as those posed to me.

    My eleven nominees:

    Dan Anton

    Boundless Blessings by Kamal

    Retired? No one told me!

    Syl65

    Ivor.Plumber/Poet

    The Write Stuff

    Mary Smith

    Erika Kind

    Teagan’s Books

    Annette Rochelle Aben

    The Write Stuff

     

     

     

 

The Blue Sky Tag from D. Wallace Peach

The Blue Sky Tag comes to me from D. Wallace Peach.

The rules are:

Use the Blue Sky banner  (Designed by Rachael Ritchey).

Answer the 11 questions set by your tagger.

Make up 11 original and interesting or funny questions for those you tag.

Tag 11 people.

Thank you for the tag, Diana. 🙂

The questions:

  1. What country have you never visited but would love to, and why?

I would love to visit Spain, my family is Sephardi, and so I’ve always felt an affinity for Spain and for the Spanish language.

 

A Public Domain Photo 1900 photo of a Sephardi couple from Sarajevo
1900 photo of a Sephardi couple from Sarajevo


2. What person in your life (not including family members) has most shaped who you are today?

Gee, that’s a tough one. My first impulse is to say my partner of 27 years; but the person who most shaped who I am today was my literary mentor, Harold Norse.

3. List three things that make you happy?

My Partner, the City of San Francisco, and the spiritual energy I feel when I write or make art.

  1. What’s your favorite genre to read?

I’m re-reading ‘Miss Lonelyhearts‘ by Nathaniel West and and ‘Trout Fishing in America’ by Richard Brautigan, I’m also reading the Physician’s Desk Reference (seriously). The side effects and adverse reactions sections are a hoot.  

 

This is the front cover art for the book Miss Lonelyhearts written by Nathanael West. The book cover art copyright is believed to belong to the publisher, Liveright, or the cover artist.
Miss Lonelyhearts by Nathaniel West.

5. What time period in history most intrigues you, and why?

This period in history is damned intriguing.

Americans face two clear paths. We decide to move forward, to join a global community that uses technology to enlighten and empower the many, or we decide to create a hellish dystopia, a barbaric high-tech dark ages ruled wealthy tyrants who control us with lies and fear. It’s fascinating because we’re still a democracy, so it’s a choice.

6. If you could add a new talent to your repertoire, what would it be, and why?

Animation.  I’d like to use it to perform.

7. Where is your favorite place in the world, and why?

Home. Home is the best place for a time of introspection. 

  1. What animal best describes your personality, and why?

The Cat.

animated gif of a cat batting its owner's face
found on GIPHY

Cats are loving but not servile. 

  1. What’s your favorite recipe (and please share it)?

Oatmeal made with chocolate soy-milk and cinnamon. Pour water and chocolate soy milk into a saucepan, add oatmeal and cinnamon, soak for an hour, add some banana, and bring to a boil while stirring.

  1. Hiking boots, sneakers, heels, or flip-flops?

Hiking boots. 

11. Would you rather have tons of love and little wealth, or tons of wealth and little love?

Tons of love and little wealth is what I chose, so I guess I have what I want. 🙂

I tag you, whoever you are and I like these questions so here you go.

Thanks again, Diana.

Let’s have some Ella!

 

 

Rob Goldstein 2018

I do not own the images in this post

 

The Liebster Award-2018

This Liebster Award comes to me from  The Jaguar and its Allies

Thanks for the Award Josh

Rules of the Liebster Award

  1. Thank the blogger who nominated you.
  2. Share 11 facts about yourself.
  3. Answer the 11 questions the blogger gave you.
  4. Nominate 11 bloggers who deserve the award.
  5. Create 11 original questions for the nominees to answer.

Let nominees know they have been nominated.

Questions from Josh:

If you had an extra 30 minutes of free time each day, how would you spend it?

Napping.

What does success mean to you?

Peace of mind.

Are you following the World Cup? If so, which team(s) are you supporting?

Not

Which mythological creature would you most like to encounter in real life?

Pegasus

What is your dream job?

Psychologist

If you could travel back in time, when and where would you go? Why?

I would go back to November 1963 and save John Kennedy’s life.
I think his assassination damaged our country in ways we still
don’t understand.

Would you rather read a book or watch a movie/television show?

At this point in my life, I’d rather watch a well written film.

Out of all the cities you have been to, which is your favorite?

My home town, San Francisco

If you could be any animal for a day, which one would you choose and why?

A cat. I just love cats.

Would you prefer to live in an area with extremely hot summers or cold winters?

Cold Winters

If you could spend a year in another country, where would you go?

Canada, I want to see what a functioning democracy looks like.

As I understand it, the Liebster Award is an award to recognize new
bloggers and introduce them to the community.

My nominees are mostly new to me, with the exception Danica of Living a Beautiful Life, who nominated me for my first Liebster Award in 2015.

My 11 Questions are the same one’s Josh asked of me.

If your blog is award free please accept this nomination as my way of saying thank you for being a WordPress blogger.

My 11 Questions are the same questions Josh asked of me.

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Rob Goldstein, 2018