Dissociative Identity Disorder: The Monsters Are Back

Some context.

I often write from the perspective of an alternate personality, in this case Peter, a child alternate who thinks he’s a ghost. I first posted this piece in July 2016.

Warning: Content may be triggering.

The Monsters are Back


Today was a week and now is a year.

Grief

Grieve

Grieving

Art by Rob Goldstein
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It’s 1958; monsters are everywhere.

They hiss faggot as I walk with my
head bowed.

They gather in packs and surround me.

I freeze in horror and shame.

It’s 2018 and the monsters are back.

I know these monsters;

They killed me when I was five.

A black and white screenshot of avatars staged to represent a child alternate named Peter and protector alternate named Bobby.
A screenshot of avatars staged to represent a child alternate named Peter and protector alternate named Bobby.

All material on this page (c) Rob Goldstein 2016-2018

More info: What is an alternate?

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Pa Rum Pum Pum Pum

Little baby
Pa rum pum pum pum
I am a poor boy too
Pa rum pum pum pum
I have no gift to bring
Pa rum pum pum pum
That’s fit to give our King
Pa rum pum pum pum,
rum pum pum pum,
rum pum pum pum

Little Drummer Boy
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Internet Safety for Survivors with DID / MPD

Discussing Dissociation

Hi Everyone,

I am busily working on some new posts in response to the excellent comments made by the readers here.  You have been asking good questions and making thought-provoking points.  I’m looking forward to responding to as many of these comments as I can.  Thank you for your active participation – it is really exciting to see so many folks showing up around here already!!!

In the meantime, since all of you are frequently online, and clearly many of you are dissociative trauma survivors, I want to encourage you to read some very well written articles about internet safety and internet predators:

  • Internet Predators: They Really Are Everywhere
  • Internet Predators: One Way They Work
  • Internet Predators and Child Alters: 10 Ideas to Keep Them Safe

These excellent articles are all available on Rocking Complacency, http://rockingcomplacency.wordpress.com.   For that matter, this entire blog is good.  If you are up to…

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Lack of Acceptance of Dissociative Parts and Their Life Histories

Good info on how dissociative parts become distinct

Discussing Dissociation

Many trauma survivors with DID, especially those relatively new in the treatment process, often have difficulty accepting that there are “other people inside your head.”

The ideas of losing time (including big chunks of time), losing control of yourself and your mind or your body, having a limited awareness of what has happened in your life, sharing your life with a bunch of others of all different ages, and understanding that all this was caused by severe trauma, can all be difficult realities to grasp.

Inside parts.  Dissociative alter personalities.  Splits of you, from you, but very different from you.

The willingness to share your life with others can be difficult, especially if you haven’t realized that those others inside have been taking turns already.  If this has been happening for years without your awareness, why do you need to know now?

So… if you don’t want them to be…

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