The trauma response is instinctive and bypasses reason.
My “behaviors” are symptoms of “trigger” responses to memories
so painful my brain repeatedly banishes them from consciousness.
This means that parts of my psyche are subconsciously locked in moments of fear, pain, and dread.
They are locked in moments of abuse
I felt desperate when I met with my psychiatrist today.
I am overwhelmed by emotional pain and often feel trapped
When I leave my house, I have panic attacks in which I
freeze in traffic.
Yesterday I was nearly hit by a car.
I am constantly in a state of anxiety and the toll on my physical health and my relationships is terrible.
There were very real and commonsense reasons that psychiatry
once offered patients extended hospital stays.
Families are not trained therapists.
If anything, the families of patients need education and support.
I have discussed the idea of intensive case management with
my primary therapist.
I asked my prescribing psychiatrist, whom I see once every three months, for either a consulting psychotherapist experienced in dissociative disorders or an intensive case manager who can train the staff and co-ordinate my treatment when I need a critical intervention.
My psychiatrist told me that there are “financial constraints” and advised me to make the request as a grievance.
Why do I have to do battle to receive the recommended treatment for someone with a verified dissociative disorder?
There are no “real” financial constraints; certainly not in a nation will give the wealthy Dick Cheney a free heart transplant.