Poetry: At Ease

His presence, persistent,

I am the curvy wall

under blankets, pressed to black,

but how

these swollen bruises.

He says

I’m his tough little girl

his half-baked boy

his meat

                (c) Rob Goldstein 5/5/1993-02/28/2019

 

 

 

Rob’s Weekly News Wrap Up 3/02-3/08

It was a frustrating week of endless disclosures of Trump Family Crimes closing with Trump’s abuse of  power to retaliate against Michael Cohen after signing Bibles for tornado victims who thank God for a president who denies climate change.

How is this horrible man still President?

Animated Gif of President Trump shoving his way through a group of men
This is NOT Normal.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Meanwhile Trump crony and co-conspirator, Paul Manafort, got four years in for
crimes that would have most of us in prison for most of our lives.

On a personal note, I felt unsafe walking around the City with a Canon DSLR and told a friend I was shopping for a phone with a powerful camera. She surprised me with a Galaxy S10 I. I’m grateful to have friends who support my work. I’ll use the weekend to learn my new tool and use the photos for #WordlessWednesday 🙂

 

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03/08/2019

Rob Goldstein: Featured on Beyond Your Past

I’m proud that I’m this week’s featured podcast on Beyond Your Past.

I have a multiplicity of conflicting opinions about everything including
my diagnosis.

These conflicts manifest as a pattern of symptoms that affect productivity.

Learning to cope with these symptoms is a primary treatment goal.

This is the core of this week’s podcast with Matt Pappas.

Dissociative Identity Disorder: Do Your Alters Agree with the Diagnosis of DID?

2011 Blackerry shot of a graffiti mural in San Francisco's Mission District
Campos

 

The Beyond Your Past Podcast is hosted by Certified Life Coach, NLP Master Practitioner, and Mental Health Advocate, Matthew Pappas. He is also the founder of SurvivingMyPast.net, a blog in support of all who have survived the Trauma of Abuse.

 

Beyond your past is a great resource for people with C-PTSD and other trauma related symptoms.

‘Portrait of Rob Goldstein #25’ and Campos (c) Rob Goldstein 2019

My Time of Dying

I wrote this poem in December 1984.

San Francisco’s gay men were hit hard by the AIDS epidemic: the sick and dying were everywhere and no one really knew how HIV was transmitted.

As the number of cases increased most of the healthy men I knew thought they were they were going to sicken and die.

The press called us the worried well.

With cases of AIDS becoming more widespread every week, the United States is undergoing a second, related epidemic–fear of AIDS.  The Chicago Tribune August 1985

I was 31. This is how I wanted to die.

If now is my time of dying
let it be a time of giving
a time of joy
an exchange of one gift
for another
to be part of the plan
aware of the plan
God grant me grace
in this interlude
this movement foreword
this final act of life.

‘My Time of Dying’ Rob Goldstein 1984-2019
 Portrait of Rob Goldstein by Nina Glaser