A conservative is a liberal who wants to save the freedoms he’s won. The right-wing is something else.
My social media icons came
back today! Yay!
My Social Media Share Icons
I can comment but can’t like
I have access to these icons in
the reader but the posts I want
to read don’t show up.
I will ‘like’ and ‘re-blog’ when WordPress
solves the problem.
Update: 1:42PM. I just noticed the ‘Follow’
option is also gone.
In the meantime I’m using the reader which
let’s me access the ‘share’ icons.
What is going on?
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Dissociative amnesia. The main symptom is memory loss that’s more severe than normal forgetfulness and that can’t be explained by a medical condition. You can’t recall information about yourself or events and people in your life, especially from a traumatic time. Dissociative amnesia can be specific to events in a certain time, such as intense combat, or more rarely, can involve complete loss of memory about yourself. It may sometimes involve travel or confused wandering away from your life (dissociative fugue). An episode of amnesia usually occurs suddenly and may last minutes, hours, or rarely, months or years.
Dissociative identity disorder. Formerly known as multiple personality disorder, this disorder is characterized by “switching” to alternate identities. You may feel the presence of two or more people talking or living inside your head, and you may feel as though you’re possessed by other identities. Each identity may have a unique name, personal history and characteristics, including obvious differences in voice, gender, mannerisms and even such physical qualities as the need for eyeglasses. There also are differences in how familiar each identity is with the others. People with dissociative identity disorder typically also have dissociative amnesia and often have dissociative fugue.
Depersonalization-derealization disorder. This involves an ongoing or episodic sense of detachment or being outside yourself — observing your actions, feelings, thoughts and self from a distance as though watching a movie (depersonalization). Other people and things around you may feel detached and foggy or dreamlike, time may be slowed down or sped up, and the world may seem unreal (derealization). You may experience depersonalization, derealization or both. Symptoms, which can be profoundly distressing, may last only a few moments or come and go over many years
Dissociative Identity Disorder is the other two disorders plus alternate identities with memories of their own.
“Each identity may have a unique name, personal history, and characteristics, including obvious differences in voice, gender, mannerisms, and even such physical qualities as the need for eyeglasses. There also are differences in how familiar each identity is with the others.”
DID is an uneasy alliance of defense mechanisms.
For instance, Bobby and the Aversion Therapist; I know the story is true,
but I don’t remember it.
From my perspective, it never happened.
Research is improved since I was first diagnosed in 2009.
In 2015 the National Institutes of Health published research that explains
memory disruption in people with DID.
Normal memory is episodic.
The flow of consciousness across time is necessary to create an experience of the present, (“now”) in the context of a subjective past and anticipated future. Accordingly, under normal circumstances, time is experienced as continuously moving forward. However, traumatized individuals often relive their traumatic memories through flashbacks and lack the ability to live in the “now,” reflecting a key dissociative process associated with trauma-related altered states of consciousness. Such reliving events are in contrast to intrusive memory recall most frequently associated with reminder distress and not involving an altered state of consciousness or a dissociative process but rather represent a state of normal waking consciousness Eur J Psychotraumatol. 2015
Normal memory is “Back when I was 16,” as opposed to ‘I am 16.”
“Episodic memory differs from other kinds of memory in that its operations require a self. It is the self that engages in the mental activity that is referred to as mental time travel: there can be no travel without a traveler …” Eur J Psychotraumatol. 2015
I don’t remember things, I relive them.
“…while remembering an event, mental time travel is “partial” in that the present self voluntarily directs attention to the past self, thus maintaining awareness of the present self in the present time. In this case, the “I” is proposed to exist in the present self, which outweighs the representation of the past self in past time. In contrast, during a reliving experience, mental time travel occurs “fully,” generally not by choice, and is usually triggered by internal and/or external stimuli that bear some resemblance to a past self-state. In this case, the “I” is thought to inhabit the past self, which is thought to outweigh the presence of the present self, thus lacking a mental time traveler and the ability to voluntarily position oneself in the past or in the future.” Eur J Psychotraumatol. 2015
I discussed my post about the first day of desegregation with my therapist.
It’s a short piece but was hard to write because as I wrote it, I lost most of
I told my therapist I was writing like a seven-year old.
She said it was a gift.
Maybe it’s true.
Maybe telling the ugliness of mindless violence as witnessed
by a frightened child is a kind of gift.
It’s a gift that sometimes feels like a curse.
Why do I write?
Why do I give so much of my life to it?
How many poems must one write to be
If it’s a masterwork, one.
(c) Rob Goldstein 2018
At 8:45 AM I was in class to help my teacher get the classroom ready
for the day; I was seven and it was my turn to help with morning chores.
My teacher was in a dither because ‘colored kids’ were coming to school
Mrs. Sullivan furiously scrubbed the blackboard and muttered under her
breath about ‘niggers’.
I’d never seen any colored kids but heard lots of them lived in
Mrs. Sullivan and I opened the windows so we could clap chalk out the
erasers when through a haze of white dust we saw the first colored kids
arrive at my school.
I smiled and raised my hand to wave but Mrs. Sullivan grabbed my wrist.
Below us, a crowd of white parents formed a barricade with their
kids in front of the entrance; all of them had stones.
The black kids looked scared and paused on the playground, their
parents behind them.
A white man shouted, ‘Go home niggers!’
Then all the parents shouted and threw stones.
A big stone hit a little black girl in the face.
She fell backward and cried.
I felt sad.
I didn’t understand.
White folks said colored people liked their lives.
They said people get along best when they know
They said colored people want to know their place.
The little black girl’s mother scooped her up and carried her away.
Mrs. Sullivan had tears in her eyes so I asked her why and here is
what she said:
“Nothin’s gonna be the same.”
Rob Goldstein (C) 2018
Rob Goldstein (C) 2018
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