I’ve spent a decade in therapy to recover from an emotionally needy, gaslighting narcissist, who raised her Jewish Son among abusive, anti-Semitic, fag-bashing racists, some of them pedophiles, who considered themselves good Christians.
Ironic, isn’t it?
I’m the one with the diagnoses.
What have I learned?
I am a human being,
I have a right to be alive.
When the trauma is drawn out over a number of years, dissociation becomes a way of life. Once learned, it is a fixed part of the personality that asserts itself long beyond the original dangers that prompted it.
This is an illustration of the principle that C-PTSD is essentially a learning process gone awry as a consequence of the child developing in a dangerous environment. Dissociation and C-PTSD
The effects of long-term child abuse last a lifetime.
This post inspired by the #BraveWrite hashtag on Twitter.
Rob Goldstein 2019
“Los Portales’ (c) Rob Goldstein 2016
I was under powerful witchcraft and hoped I was possessed.
I thought of little Reagan; the tricks he did with the crucifix.
He was light in the head and rose by circumstance.
Were I novelist, I’d have written a story, but instead I spun
and spewed garlic.
Judy asked if I was trying to vomit and I snarled, “No! I need a
Judy said what I really needed was a time out until I learned
I’m starting to think Judy doesn’t love me.
The staff carried me off before I could levitate.
Rob Goldstein (c) 2017 All Rights Reserved
Note: Seclusion is a nursing intervention defined as the solitary containment of an agitated patient in a fully protective environment.
And when the time comes,
we shall depart these
the candle flickered on our nightstand,
his scarlet cheeks.
©Rob Goldstein 2019
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