Dedicated to the cornfedcontessa who first posted this video under this titlepetrel41 who gave me the magic link. For reasons known only to the God’s of the internets the video in my reblog of the cornfedcontessa ‘s post didn’t work.
Our elders, the visionaries who wrote and passed so many of the laws and public services that made American Democracy the most prosperous democracy in human history used film to teach their children what they had learned from the Great Depression and the horrors of fascism.
This ten minute film includes a brief discussion of feudalism and an analyses of why the people of one of Europe’s great democracies succumbed to fascism.
Democracy, released in 1945 was made by Encyclopedia Britannica for high school civics classes.
Yesterday my partner stared at me in shock and said, ‘you’re such
a collage of so many things.’
I don’t know what he meant.
I don’t know what my partner means when he tells my therapist about the “straight one.”
The ‘straight one’ makes my partner feel unwanted and that’s unacceptable.
So, I’m always learning, always questioning, always asking myself what I can do to better manage my symptoms to keep my friendships
and protect my loved ones.
I can ask my partner to accept my illness but I can’t ask him to be more than human.
It’s hard to live with someone who has DID and my stance is I’m responsible for the behavior of my alternates.
I’m also responsible for letting people know what they can expect in
a relationship with me.
Looks are deceiving
I’m a ‘high functioning’ patient except when I’m not.
This paragraph from the PODS website is a perfect description of what that means:
“In practice, the vast majority of people with dissociative identity disorder do not obviously present as if they have ‘multiple personalities’. Instead, they present with a number of both dissociative and post-traumatic symptoms, as well as many apparently non-trauma-related issues such as depression, substance abuse, eating disorders, and anxiety. According to Richard Kluft, a leading expert in the field, only 6 per cent of people with DID present their ‘multiple’ or ‘dissociated’ identities publicly and obviously. Elizabeth Howell describes DID as ‘a disorder of hiddenness’, as the vast majority of people with DID, often motivated by shame, will attempt to conceal their symptoms and way of being. This in part explains why, despite dissociative identity disorder being so prevalent, few people are properly aware of it. In fact, many people with DID are high-functioning members of society with good careers before some crisis or build-up of stress leads to a sudden and catastrophic ‘breakdown’”PODS (Positive Outcomes for Dissociative Survivors)
I had that sudden and catastrophic ‘breakdown’ in 2009.
I felt hopeless, helpless, and child like; I was emotionally five.
I had two inpatient stays and a couple of months of intensive
daily outpatient therapy.
I began to re-stabilize in late 2014, when I started Art by Rob
Goldstein, but I’ve never returned to my earlier baseline
level of functioning.
Different people meet different parts of me and those who
don’t spend time me never see the DID.
This gets to the unique problems posed by social media.
I like collaborating with the creative minds I meet online.
The problem is that I can’t always do what I think I can do.
A part of me may agree to read a book that another part
doesn’t want to read.
A part of me may agree to do an interview but a week goes
by because the part that’s ‘out’ doesn’t know about it.
How do you live with or collaborate with me or anyone else
who has DID?
I. If you’re the spouse of someone with DID schedule joint
sessions with the therapist. It will make life better for both
II: Believe that DID is real. if you forget your friend has DID
you will take the symptoms personally.
III:. If your friend says she’s too ill to work believe it.
IV. If you want to collaborate with me, you must read my blog. You
can’t really know me if you don’t read my blog.
V. It’s OK to feel frustrated. The illness is unpredictable and
causes sudden changes. Be compassionate to yourself when
you lose patience.
I’m a difficult man to know.
I’m a collage of many things.
Again, from POD:
“If you try and tell people that you have different alters and that some of them are a different gender, and have different names and ages, then they really do look at you as if you’re mad. How do I know that I’m not actually just mad? How do I know that I’m not making all this stuff up? I don’t want my kids to be taken away, and I don’t want something on my record that stops me having a career, once I can cope with work again. When I’ve lost time and I don’t know what I’ve been doing for the last few hours, I’m not so much bothered about what it is that I’ve been doing as I’m really upset that I’m being ‘mad’. It’s almost like an obsessive, ruminating thought that just goes around and around—it’s quite ironic, I suppose, but I guess the fear of being mad is what I think is sending me mad!”
As I understand the history of World War Two, the average person in the United States believed that he or she was fighting to preserve a way of life based on respect for independent thought and speech, religious differences, basic economic security, and freedom from war.
In his January 1941 State of the Union Address President Franklin D. Roosevelt enumerated four essential freedoms for which we as a Nation stand and for which we will fight.
“The first is freedom of speech and expression—everywhere in the world.
The second is freedom of every person to worship God in his own way–everywhere in the world.
The third is freedom from want—which, translated into world terms, means economic understandings, which will secure to every nation a healthy peacetime life for its inhabitants—everywhere in the world.
The fourth is freedom from fear—which, translated into world terms, means a world-wide reduction of armaments to such a point and in such a thorough fashion that no nation will be in a position to commit an act of physical aggression against any neighbor—anywhere in the world.”
The inescapable fact is that in 1941 the nation went to war with human evil as it was expressed in Germany by the Nazis.
Two very different versions of civilization had emerged after World War 1 and they had to clash.
U.S propaganda focused on human rights:
German propaganda focused on fear:
The first poster presents freedom from want and a degree of economic security as a measure of freedom.
The second poster focuses on freedom from reason.
It is the freedom to blame, scapegoat, steal, and murder.
It is a world without negative consequences for the “right” people.
It is a world in which the state can legalize murder and use assembly line technology as the weapon of choice.
It is a world of people who believe that what they pretend they don’t know makes them innocent.
What is faith?
I ask myself this as I contemplate the grievance I have to file to get the treatment I need to make this pain go away.
Why don’t my treatment providers care that I’m in pain.
Why haven’t they studied this disorder and acted on its seriousness?
Why don’t they care that I must live in fear of myself as I use every skill I have to survive the increased fragmentation that is essential to getting well but is dangerous because of the resistance and anger by some of my alternates?
Why do I have to do something as negative as file a grievance?
What am I “grieving”?
Maybe I’m grieving the time that I’m losing to my illness as I contemplate filing a grievance.
In the cynical version of history Roosevelt lied; cynics look at that generation of people and point to the racism, the homophobia, and they are right.
The people who followed a president into a war based on the premise of the preservation of essential human rights were flawed.
But they tried.
Hope is what gave birth to the Civil Rights Movement.
The idea that we as a Nation of people will talk to each other and listen, and the idea we will use our economic system and government to realize a vision in which each of us benefits from the creative wonder of the human mind.
Good and evil is always right where we stand.
We cannot defeat evil but we can regulate it and be alert to its seductive power.
I suppose that what I cannot understand is why I feel as if I’m living in a world that refuses to even try.