The Kiss

VR based digital painting of two mail avatars in the last few seconds before a kiss
The Kiss



stroke smooth smoothly stroked back

rest chest on chest

                                  thigh on thigh

my hard on your soft


(c) Bob Goldstein 1976



Color Me Real


People – Barbara Streisand and Stevie Wonder
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Mental Health: A Gilligan’s Island of the Damned

Gilligan's Island by Jean Paul Sarte

My therapist told me I called her last Saturday.

I remember my hands trembling.

She said some of my alters are mad at her, especially Bobby.

They think she wants them dead.

She said  I called her and said that I was in crisis.

She said Bobby wanted a meeting with her in Second Life.

I envisioned what a session in Second Life with all of my alternates would look like and came up with Gilligan’s Island as existential fever dream: Hell is other avatars.

Our castaways don’t know they’ve been shipwrecked and each will torture the other for seeking rescue.

Eh well, let’s continue…

My therapist said she refused Bobby’s demands.

Later, after the session, I realized that my teen self had demanded my therapist meet him in Second Life and the absurdity made me laugh out loud.

My therapist is right not to go into Second Life.

Her clinical judgment is impeccable

This has been another rough week.

I always lose time but there is a bi-polar part to my illness, so I’m a bit manic, I get little sleep and my brain is in overdrive.

My goal is to be more consistent and more present over the next five days and catch up with my growing community on WordPress

(This was first posted in March of 2015. I re-read it and found  it still relevant.)

Rob Goldstein 2015-2019


Eight Things I love about Second Life

GizzA – 4rd Anniversary Group Gift [Women] Dress XS
Eight Things I love about Second Life

There’s an old saying that if you put more than three people in a room you get politics.

Imagine what that’s like for someone with DID.

My DID Addams Family work very hard to avoid sounding crazy.

That’s a tad absurd; why have a mental health blog if you can’t sound little crazy?

I don’t mean sounding crazy as in speaking in gibberish; I’ll leave that to narcissists that are even perfect at speaking gibberish.

People with DID contradict themselves, it’s what we do.

I disagree with the constant harping on everything hateful about Second Life.

Mateo made a mistake and his feelings were hurt; it’s time he got over it and moved on.

I like Second Life.

Yes, some of the members are sociopaths; so what else is new?

Have you seen American politics lately?

I believe that if we’re going to complain about a group of people or a social media platform, we must also find the good and validate it.

To that I end I’ve written this short post. Eight things I love about Second Life.

The fashion designers – There is an art to making virtual clothing and avatars that walk properly and can dance. Everything that I have on in these photos is a combination of textures and virtual objects sculpted to look like hair and eyes. Someone spent time and energy to design this outfit. The gown that I’m wearing in the first shot is free at the Gizza main store.  I can’t make these things but I love the people who did. So to the people who make the skin, eyes, hair and fashion designs in Second Life, thank you.

If I pose in rain it is because someone made rain and clouds and sunshine and water.

When I dance or strike a perfect pose it is because someone spent time learning how to animate and pose avatar bodies that prefer to waddle around like ducks. Making animations and poses is difficult and I don’t know how to do it. So here’s to the animators of Second Life.

Hair styles, thousands of them, made by people who not only understand computer technology but must have the skills of a hair stylist. 

Urban Life 2
Streaming music and streaming media. I can use Winamp to stream my music into my workshop so that when I go into Second Life to play I have the music I want.

The nightclubs. If you’ve lost the use of your legs or are otherwise ill how cool is it to get together with a friend to go clubbing. Owning a virtual nightclub is time-consuming and difficult. One is a manager, event coordinator and greeter. Competition is stiff and very often underhanded: that’s the way life is.

A new way of exploring the self that has never existed. Even if I were not the female alternate of a man with DID the fact remains that a man or a woman can go into virtual reality and get a sense of what life might be like for a woman or a man, or someone from a different time and culture. I think that’s great.

The dedicated team of developers who make the Firestorm Viewer and the wonderful tools that I use to have my fun. Without you and the programmers who make other viewers nothing else is possible. And you make it for free.

Mateo and Rob have every reason to be cautious, this isn’t a pleasant World for people with disabilities; but Mateo had no business trying to separate himself from the rest of us by going into Second Life to live his own life. The wound that he nurtures is self-inflicted and will not heal until he moves on. It is just as destructive to focus on the negative and I think it alienates people who may want to get to know us. 

If you’ve read this post, I thank you.

Photo credits:


GizzA – 4rd Anniversary Group Gift [Women] Dress XS
TRUTH HAIR Harmony [Ponytail]
GizzA – Crystal Faux Fur Stole [Black]
Gizza – Hydrangia-Black
Vanity Hair
Slink Avatar Enhancement Hands – Elegant
:BB:: Mesh Lashes V.01 (lush black)
Diesel Works Poses & Animations
“Lady D” Black Shoes Elisea Carter