Portrait of a State of Mind

At some point, life will grab us
by the throat and force us to
question who we’ve become.

Art and Quote  (c) Rob Goldstein 2018


February 20, 1987 – The Party

Warning: This post contains sexual content.

A friend invites me to an S&M Party.

I’m not into S&M but agree to go.

We stand on a dark ally in front of a shiny black
door bathed in the golden light of a Victorian street

A plaque on the door reads, if you didn’t call don’t knock.

The setting is so theatrically dark and mysterious I have to laugh

Mark knocks twice, then three more times: the door swings open,
and we enter a cavernous dungeon.

It’s a party of mostly middle-aged men and women.

Some of the women wear elegant nipple clamps or strap on dildos.

I follow the sound of a pop and find another huge room.

A man dressed in leather chaps teases the nipples of a woman,
blindfolded and lashed to a cross.

Next to them two nude women: one bent over a massage table, the
other holds a paddle.

“Do you like it?”

‘Yes Mistress.”


“Do you want more?”

“Yes Mistress.”


Next to them a woman in nipple revealing latex and a
guy with a throbbing erection; he’s strapped to a gurney.

“Mommy loves Boy!”

“Yes, Mommy.”


“But Boy is bad!”

“Yes, Mommy”


“Thank you, Mommy!”


I part the sheer curtains that divide the playrooms from a patio.

On the patio a dozen leather clad men and women sit around a
lawn table passing a fat joint.

A nude man on leash and collar places his hands on his hips
and laughs:

“You tops,” he says, “You have to wear so many clothes!”

I get the joint, and take a deep hit.

Back in the playroom the woman on the cross squirms with pleasure
while Mommy tickles Boy’s balls.

(c) Rob Goldstein 1987-2018

My Daily Observation – An Update: 2/3/18

From Danny at Dream Big, Dream Often

Dream Big, Dream Often

It has been quite a while since I have given an update on my life living with MS so I thought I’d share how things are going.  I know for most of your this type of update does impact you, but I do have followers who live with the disease and I want to encourage and support them in any way I can.

Danny's iphone 696 My first day hooked up – 2011

Danny's iphone 698 The infusion happened over 5 days and they leave this in your arm…

Danny's iphone 700 Finally leaving the hospital – 2011

I have an appointment with the neurologist at the end of March to follow-up on a new medication I am beginning in April.  The medication is called Ocrevus and is an infusion I’ll take every six months in the hospital or doctor’s office.  The initial treatment is administered in two sessions, two weeks apart. At each of these sessions, I will receive 300…

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The Rest is Silence

this anguished

wait for the

savior who

bleeds that

we may

live, but

we are

that savior

who must


Rob Goldstein February 3, 2018 All Rights Reserved